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i have no clue what i am doing anymore

or what i want to do

or what i'll do if i don't get to do what i want to do when i want to do it

i'm being selfish

and i don't care

because i never do this

i always (try) and put other people first

and right now i don't want to

i don't think i should have to explain myself to anyone either

i don't feel like hearing elaborate stories about how so and so is an asshole because they didn't go to Bennett's concert

I dont want to know that a guy hasn't called you in 2 hours when he said that he'd call you back in 10 minutes

i don't want to hear the juicy details about youre latest fuck

i don't care about what the majority of the school thinks about me. Because you know what, there are some great people out there that think i am a good person and a good friend and that enjoy my company and that's all that fucking should matter. And i am trying to convince myself that it is. But at this point, i just dont know. or care enough to find out.

i just want to talk about life

real life

not about the latest jeans or aweful cd by some artist who is on the top 20 that i've never heard of

i want to talk about Darfur, Iraq, North Korea, religion, cultures, philosophy, books, movies that i've never seen before

I want to be inspired.

Yes. That is it.

i want to be inspired