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Have you ever had a day where you had a really good feeling about the way the day was going to end. But it didnt and you only started the day off like it was going to be great and it only when down hill from there? Well I am not just saying this for the fun of it, I have had one of those days. I woke up with a feeling of a great day but only to find out that nothing was going to go right. I mean the only thing that is going my way right now is my freaking video game that I have been working on for more the a year!
I dont know why but I still have a feeling that the day will end perfectly or yet again I could be VERY wrong!! I did something really fucking dumb I got mad at my only reason for living!! What a fucking IDIOT I was!! Why does she stay with me, fuck If I was her I would have left me weeks ago!! I mean really why, what does she see in me?? How can a girl..... Young woman be so perfect for me and I treat her like shit, what the fuck is wrong with me.... someone please help me..... I cant believe myself!!!
I love her so much!
I really do.... I just need to show it more!!
DAMN IT WHY AM I SUCH A BAD BOYFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love you laura no matter what happens!!