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I want to cry but I can't anymore, even in the privacy of my own studio apartment.
Too many years of numbing myself in order to function and get by.
I am still bat shit crazy. I just became half way decent at hiding it though I'm sure I still exude a sense of "offness".
It will all end in an extremely, inconveniently timed anxiety or panic attack.
Damn it.
I just want to sleep to the end of time.