embarrassment is the worst.
two posts in one day. how can my mood change so quickly? it astounds me.
it could be because im bipolar.
or i dont let myself believe what im actually feeling.
or i dont really care except im dramatic and i like to pretend i do.
or better yet, i get jealous really easily over dumb unimportant things.
and all of this wrapped in the shroud of me overanalyzing every, fucking thing.
i mean seriously. why do i care so much? it was a ridiculous nothing that happened last night and i knew it and i dont have feelings for him. so why am i acting dumb? HA! im a joke.
what does it say about me? its the question that keeps being played over and over in my mind. the looks his friends give him. the high fives. and then the joking. and then the other girl. is she prettier? what the fucks his problem? you can still talk to me. you can not be awkward. dude, the shit isnt serious. it can happen again, in fact, i would like it. hahahahahahaha oh my god. im so retarded.
what am i even saying anymore?
it could be because im bipolar.
or i dont let myself believe what im actually feeling.
or i dont really care except im dramatic and i like to pretend i do.
or better yet, i get jealous really easily over dumb unimportant things.
and all of this wrapped in the shroud of me overanalyzing every, fucking thing.
i mean seriously. why do i care so much? it was a ridiculous nothing that happened last night and i knew it and i dont have feelings for him. so why am i acting dumb? HA! im a joke.
what does it say about me? its the question that keeps being played over and over in my mind. the looks his friends give him. the high fives. and then the joking. and then the other girl. is she prettier? what the fucks his problem? you can still talk to me. you can not be awkward. dude, the shit isnt serious. it can happen again, in fact, i would like it. hahahahahahaha oh my god. im so retarded.
what am i even saying anymore?