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if you had asked me two or three years ago what i wanted to be when i grow up, i'd have said i wasn't sure but i knew i was going to make a difference in the world. i was going to stand out from the crowd, be selfless, and help people. i wasn't going to live in an expensive house and i wasn't going to drive an expensive car.
right now i don't know. i just might slip into the river and find i can't keep my head above the water. i know that i want to have a job that makes money, but not so that i can spend it. lately the happiest thought to me has been the thought of helping people in africa. isn't that weird? but i don't know if i can get to that job. sometimes i can feel myself giving up. it's the feeling of sliding and not being able to stop yourself.
what i want is to be able to set my mind. i want to not be persuaded. i want to be able to say what i want when you ask me.
right now i don't know. i just might slip into the river and find i can't keep my head above the water. i know that i want to have a job that makes money, but not so that i can spend it. lately the happiest thought to me has been the thought of helping people in africa. isn't that weird? but i don't know if i can get to that job. sometimes i can feel myself giving up. it's the feeling of sliding and not being able to stop yourself.
what i want is to be able to set my mind. i want to not be persuaded. i want to be able to say what i want when you ask me.