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i'm having trouble ballancing school and activities. like, i'm finally getting involved in something that i love, but it's hard to remember that school is still more important, even though, to me, right now, i want to be involved in ORGT more than anything. i went rock climbing yesterday and it was awesome. but i have a physics test tomorrow that i have barely studied for. blah.
this is the first (and hopefully last) 3 week time span i've gone without seeing kass this semester. i don't think i've missed her this much in a while. it's really starting to bother me how more and more of my friends are finding girlfriends and boyfriends here on campus. it's really not fair and really hard to watch. sometimes i sit around and think about how different everything would be if kass were here. i would just be a totally different person. i mean, i like who i am, but i like who i am around her better. i wouldn't be the weird tag-along kid.
i like being funny, but i hate being goofy.
i don't know what i'm going to do next fall. as of right now, i have ORGT and some potentially great living conditions to distract me. if i can make up my mind, i might even join the band. but i don't think any amount of disctactions will keep me from being sad from july until november. it's going to be like living in a cave. i need to get a calling card to chile. do they make those?
this stupid physics test tomorrow is making everything sad. i can drop it, so why is it bothering me so much? could it be that, deep down inside, i really do care about my grades? probably not.
so basically, i had an awesome weekend. i have some cool climbing and backpacking friends. i still have my old best friends (except colin. but he always said he wanted a watery grave). my girlfriend is amazingly understanding and endlessly patient. and, starting tomorrow, school is more important than everything else again. too bad.
this is the first (and hopefully last) 3 week time span i've gone without seeing kass this semester. i don't think i've missed her this much in a while. it's really starting to bother me how more and more of my friends are finding girlfriends and boyfriends here on campus. it's really not fair and really hard to watch. sometimes i sit around and think about how different everything would be if kass were here. i would just be a totally different person. i mean, i like who i am, but i like who i am around her better. i wouldn't be the weird tag-along kid.
i like being funny, but i hate being goofy.
i don't know what i'm going to do next fall. as of right now, i have ORGT and some potentially great living conditions to distract me. if i can make up my mind, i might even join the band. but i don't think any amount of disctactions will keep me from being sad from july until november. it's going to be like living in a cave. i need to get a calling card to chile. do they make those?
this stupid physics test tomorrow is making everything sad. i can drop it, so why is it bothering me so much? could it be that, deep down inside, i really do care about my grades? probably not.
so basically, i had an awesome weekend. i have some cool climbing and backpacking friends. i still have my old best friends (except colin. but he always said he wanted a watery grave). my girlfriend is amazingly understanding and endlessly patient. and, starting tomorrow, school is more important than everything else again. too bad.