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[laugh_cry_die]

today i thought of you. again.
and i really wish you'd be happy.
learn to be happy. 
want to be happy.

sometimes i wish you were not the way you are - 
even though i love you because you are who you are. 
i love you for being that fucked up freakass.

but today -
(it's strange, really.)
i wish you were ignorant. 
and i wish you were someone i'd not care about
someone i'd not love
someone i'd not bother thinking about

today i wish you were some ignorant fuck
who really knows nothing about love, life, beauty, and pain.

today i wish you were some deluded shitass
who knows only one thing - 
how to be happy.