Sep 26, 2006 14:55
I have a spanish paper due tomorrow. It is supposed to be 4 pages long and I'm sitting, bored out of my mind, in front of a 3 page long Word Document that I just don't have the strength to finish. Now you're probably reading this being like, "What a lazy piece of lard." Well let me just say, no, I'm not lazy. I'm bored and dying to move onto something new. I have a book that I really want to read. It's a book for pleasure, not for class and I would love to start it. I just keep staring at it on the shelf above my desk, but I won't let myself read it until I'm done with this damn paper. So now, to get my mind off of both the paper and the book, I'm writing here. Ugghhhhhhhhhh. This paper isn't even hard. It's just so unbelievably dull. My poor professor has to read all these papers like this. When I'm a teacher, I'm never going to assign dull, boring papers. That will just kill me when I have to correct them.
So here's the question of the day. In my history class we're talking about some old philosophers like Machiavelli and people like that. Anyway, one of the big points about them is that they presented the idea to people that life was not decided by fate alone. They advocated that people make changes for themselves and live lives for themselves. Now honestly, I totally agree with that. But I also agree that fate does have a determining factor in everyone's life and that just because you want something doesn't mean you can necessarily have it. So the question is, Exactly how far do you go in determining your own future? To what degree should you pursue something before letting it go and realizing that it's fated that you should not achieve this goal? If it seems like a totally unattainable goal, is it because fate is trying to tell you that you shouldn't have it or is it because you just haven't tried hard enough yourself to get it?
I have so much shit running through my head right now. Study abroad qualifications. Papers. Tests. Love. Work. Money. Friends. Exercise. Time. Family. It's all building up around me and I can't see around it anymore. Gotta face it all sometime, I guess. But just not now, please.
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