you scooped me up in a big, red shovel
it's been so long since i had that feeling of pure, no regrets, ready to give anything love for anyone. i haven't had butterflies, i haven't cried myself to sleep, i haven't shown any signs of having strong feelings for someone. and i miss it so much. i've had crushes, i've had cute guys who i had my eye on, and i even dated a couple guys, but none of it really came close to what i wanted. i want someone to kiss me and i want to be crazy nervous and giddy about it. i want to really be into someone and not just for superficial reasons or because he happens to be interested. does anyone do that anymore? do people love each other anymore? am i missing out on something that everyone else is experiencing? correct me if i'm wrong...actually, don't correct me if i'm wrong...but i think that i deserve someone amazing. i deserve to be swept off my feet and happy with someone. please, God, find me someone. and no more of this just accepting anyone who is a potential date. i'm gonna be picky, i'm sorry. but why should i go out with someone who doesn't tickle my fancy just because he would be someone to date? i'm going to start standing up for myself in the dating world. i'm going to find someone who i really, truly like, and i'm going to go for him. and if someone approaches me, then i'm going to see if i truly have feelings for him before i do anything. i want butterflies. and i'll get them.
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