Its DECEMBER!!!!
Hey!!! I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving Break! It was nice to see everyone that I did. If I didn't see you, well, you're just gonna have to wait until Christmas Break :) Oh I can't wait. Guys in two weeks and a day, most of us will be home. YEAH! So everybody, kick butt on all of your finals. And if you need to call and scream, ya know the number. But good luck and you can do it!!!!
Over break was crazy busy. So many things to do and only five days. I got to go home right after my linguistics test late Tuesday night. It actually went very well (got an 89.5). Then the snow was just wonderful and made things perfect :) A welcome home snow...makes me smile. I got to hang out with Heather during the day. We went up to the high school for the pep rally and saw some old teachers. It was definitely strange, but I'm glad that I went. I miss having Nash and Jaenicke as teachers. College professors are just not the same as high school teachers yet and that's frustrating. I thought that there would be all these great relationships, but the most I got is that they all know my name now. phew. Anyways, we hung out for a bit and and went on over to Kasey's and then Becky's. "Son of a Nutcracker" WOW. It was wonderful to be with you girls again. Then Thanksgiving came and we had people over at our house then all went downtown a little tipsy :). We then went to Milwaukee and did stuff together as a family for once. I was off busy with work and catching up with them the rest of the weekend, oh and shopping. Then soon enough, I was on my drive back to school on Sunday :(
But the time is going by really fast here. There's so much to do in the next couple weeks. But I'm feeling like crap. I want to be completely focused on studying and doing well on finals but I don't think it will happen. My mind is off thinking of a million other things and I wish I was back at home, or at least closer, so I can be with my buddies to just be there and give them hugs, love, and support.
There are 2 girlies out there that I wish I could just take away their pain. I talked to one of them for a bit last night, and read a journal of another one. And I just want to say that if I could be, I'd fly back any day or time of the week to be with you guys. The whole thing, cancer and diseases, sucks and it hurts so bad. I don't even know what to say now. Just that I love you and stay strong. I've been through similar situations for a LONG time now and I may not know what to do or say, but I know HOW you feel. I can promise that I will LISTEN.
And with that, I've read that everything that happens is meant to happen. I don't think that's something fair to say because that means your dad was meant to have a dehibilitating illness or your mom is supposed to suffer. I think it's more of what happens through it and how you react because of it. Whether it is taking better care of yourself, becoming incredibly sad and experiencing true pain that makes you stronger in the end, or having an even closer relationship with your loved one, it makes you better. Though the situation sucks, it makes you that much of a stronger woman. It makes you put things in perspective and see what is important in life. And that makes you all the more stronger girls....And with that, I love you girls. All I can say is that the two of you will be so strong from all of this. I swear, if not, I'm a complete idiot and you can smack me :)
Well, that was sad. But it needed to be said. Something, anything.
"Who can say if ive been changed for the better because I knew you, I have been changed for good. It well may be that we may never in this lifetime so let me say before we part. so much of me is what ive learned from you. you'll be with me like a handprint on my heart. And now whatever way our stories end i know you have rewritten mine, by being my friend." Wicked, "For Good"