i owe it
k. sorry for the vague entry yesterday. allow me to elaborate.
2007 was horrid. like BAD.
i lost several people that i loved dearly, my jobs have changed drastically - not in the kind of tasks i do, but in the attitudes around me. it makes for unpleasant environments. ladyfest was a flop. my parents' health is slipping. i moved in with dustin, but i have just never felt "settled". my parents lost their house. again. my grandpa who didnt die (the other one did on halloween), has been hospitalized for months and is fading fast. i found out that i have a serious heart condition, causing my heart to skip every 5th beat, and severe chest pains when i'm stressed. i've neglected my art. i lost 20 lbs, and then promptly gained ALL of it back in a month. dustin finally found a job after nearly a year without one, but he hates it, i see him about 20 minutes a day, and when i do, he's complaining about his job. i have a job opportunity in a new state, and would love to go help a friend out, but i cant uproot right now.and me leaving would burn a lot of bridges here. and its a step down professionally. the tattoo shop has gotten so bad that i'm actually considering leaving and doing something elsewhere... see what i mean? this list goes on and on.
but it seems that in my head there is so much unrest. i'm just feeling like i'm needing something.... new.
to top it all: i have a huge pimple today and a tummy ache.
my head is just awash with confusion.
2007 was horrid. like BAD.
i lost several people that i loved dearly, my jobs have changed drastically - not in the kind of tasks i do, but in the attitudes around me. it makes for unpleasant environments. ladyfest was a flop. my parents' health is slipping. i moved in with dustin, but i have just never felt "settled". my parents lost their house. again. my grandpa who didnt die (the other one did on halloween), has been hospitalized for months and is fading fast. i found out that i have a serious heart condition, causing my heart to skip every 5th beat, and severe chest pains when i'm stressed. i've neglected my art. i lost 20 lbs, and then promptly gained ALL of it back in a month. dustin finally found a job after nearly a year without one, but he hates it, i see him about 20 minutes a day, and when i do, he's complaining about his job. i have a job opportunity in a new state, and would love to go help a friend out, but i cant uproot right now.and me leaving would burn a lot of bridges here. and its a step down professionally. the tattoo shop has gotten so bad that i'm actually considering leaving and doing something elsewhere... see what i mean? this list goes on and on.
but it seems that in my head there is so much unrest. i'm just feeling like i'm needing something.... new.
to top it all: i have a huge pimple today and a tummy ache.
my head is just awash with confusion.