on wants.
i always told myself that i should take more risks.
as ... helped me find out a few days ago,
i am a teacup person.
so when ive finally revealed something inside of me for the longest time
for fear of digging my own grave,
i cant find any other feeling but relief.
ive always known that disapppointment is the worst thing in life.
when we were little we always wanted a better Barbie
a few years later we wanted better coloring pencils.
then it would be a grander prom dress,
or even a better car.
but when we finally realize the important things in life,
we often ask for something not grander, but something at par
with what we often shell out:
time, love, consideration, understanding.
when we get less, we tend to feel unloved.
but when we give less than what is a natural response
to the very being of the person we love,
we tend to feel that we dont love enough.
crazy, i think.
how precious little thoughts like this can be.
but in the end,
we ask ourselves the question everyone should ask themselves:
is it all worth it?
and in the end,
fights, disappointment and worrying
will all disappear.
and all that will be left
is you giving all that you can
not caring if you get the same amount back.
besides,
we fall in love so rarely in a lifetime
we might as well give it all weve got :D
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edit: i wrote this almost 2 years ago, and i realized its bullshit. so here's to reminding myself never to think that way again. ITS NOT WORTH IT PPL, ITS NOT! ITS NOT ITS NOT ITS NOT! rofl
...ah well, whatver.
as ... helped me find out a few days ago,
i am a teacup person.
so when ive finally revealed something inside of me for the longest time
for fear of digging my own grave,
i cant find any other feeling but relief.
ive always known that disapppointment is the worst thing in life.
when we were little we always wanted a better Barbie
a few years later we wanted better coloring pencils.
then it would be a grander prom dress,
or even a better car.
but when we finally realize the important things in life,
we often ask for something not grander, but something at par
with what we often shell out:
time, love, consideration, understanding.
when we get less, we tend to feel unloved.
but when we give less than what is a natural response
to the very being of the person we love,
we tend to feel that we dont love enough.
crazy, i think.
how precious little thoughts like this can be.
but in the end,
we ask ourselves the question everyone should ask themselves:
is it all worth it?
and in the end,
fights, disappointment and worrying
will all disappear.
and all that will be left
is you giving all that you can
not caring if you get the same amount back.
besides,
we fall in love so rarely in a lifetime
we might as well give it all weve got :D
----------------------------------------------
edit: i wrote this almost 2 years ago, and i realized its bullshit. so here's to reminding myself never to think that way again. ITS NOT WORTH IT PPL, ITS NOT! ITS NOT ITS NOT ITS NOT! rofl
...ah well, whatver.