Breakdown
I suppose it's time for me to break down. I have just been crying my eyes out for the last hour. This semester has been absolutely brutal. I just don't know what I'm going to do. You go to clinical and the teacher is overly defensive, argumentative, and in general a bitch. She is grading everyone to hell and back. I have so many NI's on my shit its not even funny. If Us and NIs make up 25% of our clinical grade we fail. She is grading is ALL except her favorite few like we are licensed nurses. I don't fucking get it. I mean she spends all of the day in with two or three students leaving the other five of us to fend for ourselves, and then she gives us NIs for stuff that she really hasn't even spent enough time with us to judge. Time management skills, for one, if she doesn't go with me to interact with my patient then how would she know if I'm managing my time effectively. Also, she gave me an NI on knowledge of the disease process, which is some FUCKED UP BULLLLL SHIT. I knew everything I could possibly know about this pt's diagnosis, what was going on with him, etc. She got mad at me b/c he wanted to wait for his wife to bathe him, which is understandable...I CAN'T MAKE HIM LET ME BATHE HIM...so that must have just stuck with her. ANyway she was doing my grades a week after I did all of this anyway, like she would even remember. Anyway as if our medsurg isn't hard enough. I think if I don't fail out b/c of the med surg tests then clinical is going to be what gets me. I'm too smart for this to be happening to me, not be cocky but I mean I'm not stupid. I have never ever bordered failing out of classes. But anyway this teacher is so unprofessional, and rude. She gets to the hospital atleast 15 minutes every clinical--if we are that late we are supposed to be sent to the house. She talks about other students poor performance in front of our group, and had a personal conversation right over my head while I was trying to chart with her. How freaking rude. I don't get it, we are held to such a high standard, I think she should be expected to be atleast that good. Anyway so now all of this negativity is really getting me down. I put so much time into this. I mean I have to put my heart and soul into this, and every time I go to clinical it is so upsetting that I want to come home and sleep it off-and hope that I wont' remember it when I wake up. Unfortunatly I always remember it. This time I think I've just been pushed to the limit. I don't know if I can keep doing this anymore. It's horrible. I feel so discouraged and inadequate every time I am at the hospital. Like my work is just being criticized to the point that it couldn't possibly be good enough. Well this week I am switching clincal sites to Thomas hospital with a new instructor. So luckily this lady will be way better, i've heard she is really nice etc. I really need some positivity here. I have 5 more clinical days left. I have really got to prove myself. I really need a fresh start with someone new.
oh btw Amy since you are nursing school I need your opinion on something. For our careplans we have to write a nursing diagnosis that pertains to the patient. We have to say related to, secondary to, and as evidenced by in this sentence. (I really hope you are doing this so you will know what I'm talking about). Ex: Activity intolerance related to reduced cardiac output secondary to congestive heart failure as evidenced by abnormal heart rate, chest pain, and exertional dyspnea.
ok well our teacher wants us to put all of the symptoms for the nursing diagnosis after our as evidenced by even if our patient doesn't have those symptoms. It really doesn't make any sense to me b/c that isn't how we were taught to do it. We were taught to put only what pertains to that patient. Tell me what you think about. Maybe you can enlighten me!
oh btw Amy since you are nursing school I need your opinion on something. For our careplans we have to write a nursing diagnosis that pertains to the patient. We have to say related to, secondary to, and as evidenced by in this sentence. (I really hope you are doing this so you will know what I'm talking about). Ex: Activity intolerance related to reduced cardiac output secondary to congestive heart failure as evidenced by abnormal heart rate, chest pain, and exertional dyspnea.
ok well our teacher wants us to put all of the symptoms for the nursing diagnosis after our as evidenced by even if our patient doesn't have those symptoms. It really doesn't make any sense to me b/c that isn't how we were taught to do it. We were taught to put only what pertains to that patient. Tell me what you think about. Maybe you can enlighten me!