Trust again
Happy new years to me cause no one else gave a shit. But other then that My life down in va beach is doing ok. I have a Dell job so thats all good.. I still miss Matt to death and not a day goes by that I dont think of his loving face. But many good things they to have died. So I start to create my perfect world.. only this time it will bve alone. So I know there will be no one to leave, no one fall and no one loosing themselves. Because I will be the only one. If I fall then its my problem.. I Finally met another man Ive liked for a while.. Though I am still building this world for myself I am keeping and eye on someone to be there to enjoy it with me when Im done. Hes a great person, Besides physical looks He has a great mind and thinks alot like I do.. ask the same kinds of questions to myself. I belive we have alot in common .. even our emotions as we are both still hurting. I am not sure how he feels about me or if hes not concerned because he has his own shit to deal with or if Im not his type. Im going to let it ride out.. I at least worry about his emotions .. But I am rather tired and worn thin from this stressful torture that is my life. Im exsausted from my soul sick last love and im rehealing my scars. I dont know what im trying to say.. its torturous , so god damn violent.. Its so introspective. But life goes on.
Aya
Aya