i think........
my life is slowly getting back on track. i cant wait til thanksgiving break but i dunno if i really wanna go home. im kinda broke and dont want my parents to give me money really. i owe them alot. i also dont want to get lectured as i usually do especially after these past few months. and yea. blah. so here are things to accomplish this week.
-write spanish paper that was due monday......by today before class (>.<)
-write philophy speech (oh god)
-go get my fingerprints done for work
-call fucking kaiser about physical therapy
-call fucking kaiser again about my medical record
-call stupid fremont unified about my damn paycheck
-get out more and do randomness
-go see borat with friends (anyone up for it?)
-try to relax and be happy
-drink less or not drink at all
-have fun without having to party all the time
-get shit straightened out
-help people out
i know i always make a list and never get shit done but its a start for now. i am still unsure of how to fix shit for myself but i think this is a start.
i seriously need to find a way to make myself happy because lately all i've had is negative and depressing thought in my head. only a few times have i been happy and that is when i have been the only friends i really have here on campus or when i have out of this fucking school and out either at USC chilling with people from debate and from my high school debate team or at a debate tournament judging and helping kids out. i miss debate, i miss helping out the young kids on my team. i miss helping people period. i cant wait to start my job again, it will bring me joy (as well as frustration when dealing with the little kids hehe) to see the little kids learn something and have them be happy and ask me question......though some of them can be trouble makers. but yea only about 2 more weeks.
well i am going to attempt my 3rd or 4th attempt now at sleep. napping from 7pm til 1am=bad idea. but yea to all of you that actuallly read this. thanks. and i hope yall have a great day.
-write spanish paper that was due monday......by today before class (>.<)
-write philophy speech (oh god)
-go get my fingerprints done for work
-call fucking kaiser about physical therapy
-call fucking kaiser again about my medical record
-call stupid fremont unified about my damn paycheck
-get out more and do randomness
-go see borat with friends (anyone up for it?)
-try to relax and be happy
-drink less or not drink at all
-have fun without having to party all the time
-get shit straightened out
-help people out
i know i always make a list and never get shit done but its a start for now. i am still unsure of how to fix shit for myself but i think this is a start.
i seriously need to find a way to make myself happy because lately all i've had is negative and depressing thought in my head. only a few times have i been happy and that is when i have been the only friends i really have here on campus or when i have out of this fucking school and out either at USC chilling with people from debate and from my high school debate team or at a debate tournament judging and helping kids out. i miss debate, i miss helping out the young kids on my team. i miss helping people period. i cant wait to start my job again, it will bring me joy (as well as frustration when dealing with the little kids hehe) to see the little kids learn something and have them be happy and ask me question......though some of them can be trouble makers. but yea only about 2 more weeks.
well i am going to attempt my 3rd or 4th attempt now at sleep. napping from 7pm til 1am=bad idea. but yea to all of you that actuallly read this. thanks. and i hope yall have a great day.