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oy didnt get to see steve. im upset but hey what can i say...
"you bastard! no you can't sleep aftering being shot at and sleep deprived for over a week!"
even i think that is a bit eccentric. but of course my mom says i should demand him to kiss my ass or move on to someone who pays more attention to me. but i dont know, ive had that and i still wasnt satisfied. which means there is something wrong with me that i need to fix first.
interesting thing i saw that totally applied to me. watching will and grace and basically i got this: "In every relationship there is a flower and a gardener. a gardener is someone who nutures, tends to, and takes car of the flower. the flower is delicate and needs to be taken care of and seen after." with this i decided that i'm a BIG, FAT ROSE!!!
but in my situation, im expecting the gardener to do the growing for me. and im at the point where i want to garden. i dont want someone to waste their time taking care of me and making sure im growing alright and well. im not worth the time in my eyes.
hence why steve is the best relationship for me right now. i have to grow for myself and he'll nuture whenever he can.
but i miss having the attention. going cold turkey sucks.
glad i don't smoke.
physics is still killing me. behind in ochem. caught up in emt. sort of behind in history. ill be stable eventually...i hope.
bless those in my life who put up with me. who think that i am worth their time and love. they are the reason i can go on everyday and be thankful that i am alive. i live for those in my life and not for myself. you guys have no idea how much everyone of you means to me. no matter how much or how little we talk or hang out. something that you have done or said makes me who i am everyday. and for that i am so blessed. i only hope that i am that to everyone in their life, even if in the smallest instance of time possible.
"you bastard! no you can't sleep aftering being shot at and sleep deprived for over a week!"
even i think that is a bit eccentric. but of course my mom says i should demand him to kiss my ass or move on to someone who pays more attention to me. but i dont know, ive had that and i still wasnt satisfied. which means there is something wrong with me that i need to fix first.
interesting thing i saw that totally applied to me. watching will and grace and basically i got this: "In every relationship there is a flower and a gardener. a gardener is someone who nutures, tends to, and takes car of the flower. the flower is delicate and needs to be taken care of and seen after." with this i decided that i'm a BIG, FAT ROSE!!!
but in my situation, im expecting the gardener to do the growing for me. and im at the point where i want to garden. i dont want someone to waste their time taking care of me and making sure im growing alright and well. im not worth the time in my eyes.
hence why steve is the best relationship for me right now. i have to grow for myself and he'll nuture whenever he can.
but i miss having the attention. going cold turkey sucks.
glad i don't smoke.
physics is still killing me. behind in ochem. caught up in emt. sort of behind in history. ill be stable eventually...i hope.
bless those in my life who put up with me. who think that i am worth their time and love. they are the reason i can go on everyday and be thankful that i am alive. i live for those in my life and not for myself. you guys have no idea how much everyone of you means to me. no matter how much or how little we talk or hang out. something that you have done or said makes me who i am everyday. and for that i am so blessed. i only hope that i am that to everyone in their life, even if in the smallest instance of time possible.