almost

[latinanata]

I almost posted that i was single.. almost... but im not... not yet at least.

I was crying. ive been crying like a baby these past few days. enough water to hydrate a family for months. I just want to be happy i want himt o be happy with me, but for some reason we been bumping heads. I no longer play along with it. i actually tell him how i feel. I get mad I cry. I tell him. theres no more holding back.
I dunno where he and i are headed.
It doesnt seem like its going to work out. but thats looking at it not being me.
looking at it being me, this is going to work. we will work it out. I dont want to hurt anymore, and im going to tell him this. I want to feel loved and love.
Its amazing how much one person can make u feel so horrible , but yet happy at times.

I lost some good friends, and morgan because of this relationship i am having now. it haunts me everyday. theres no turning back. this is more reason why i have to work this out.
damn.. I started an entry thank goodness i didnt finish it.. and the only reason i didnt is cause i couldnt hold my tears back.. sheesh.. why am i such an emotional wreck

Im home for a few days.. getting away from the tears.

I need prayer.