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today was my first day of camp and i guess it went ok!? but we met our new ass. director she's kinda a bitch and ugly but i guess im just being just mean but i really dont like much at all and dont think its going to change oh well what can you do ? i also visited my grandma at the hospital today she seems to being doing ok but i dont know because we havent talked to the doctor and they are still running tests but overall i think it was just a one day thing hopefully.oh and when i was at the hospital my friend ricky called me (let me tell you about ricky. ricky graduated this past year from our high school and he just so happends to be brothers with one of my brothers friends from high school so naturally we became friends as well. i've always thought that heswas really cute and sweet to all the girls he has dated in the past be never really thought anything past the friends level because i figured he didnt think of me that way no big deal right? Well some time during the summer he called me while i was away at camp and i was really happy because we hadnt talked in a while so then we started talking about our friendship and when i got back i called me again and told me how he alawys thought i was cute and wonder if it would be ok if we started hanging out more just as friends and if something happed then great but if not it still ok because we still had our friendship. so i said that would be fine but he also told me that he kinda had a g/f at the time and didnt want to cheat on her but he wasnt sure if he could or not well im not one to still a guy away from another girl so i tried not to really call him alot but then i started thinking why would he tell me all that when he had a g/f i kinda brought me down cuz i was pretty happy about us maybe having something cuz he's GREAT!!! but i dont know? and when he called he would talk about her or be leaving her house so i just thought nothing was going to happend )so thats why i was shocked he called and wanted to come over and happy and excited all rolled in to one but in the back of my mind wondering why and if we should hang out.its really confusing and i hate the fact that i like him calling and i guess wanting to come over and knowing that there is someone else i can't forget that!!! :( and he just text me on my phone :) but hes getting in the shower so we really cant talk right now unless i want he to hurt himself by talking in the shower ....... maybe i should so wont have to worry about him anymore lol j/k another good thing is that my sisters seem to approve and think hes cute :) so i dunno until next time bye