We are broken
We are broken- Paramore
I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun
With my wide eyes
I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this
Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me
Yeah
Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole
Lock the doors
Cause I like to capture this voice
it came to me tonight
So everyone will have a choice
And under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
We're at war
We live like this
Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me
Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole
Tower over me
Tower over me
And I'll take the truth at any cost
Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole
World so cold-12 Stones
It starts with pain
Followed by hate
Fueled by the endless questions no one can answer
A stain covers your heart, and tears you apart
Just like a sleeping cancer
I don't believe men are born to be killers
I don't believe the world can't be saved
How did you get here and when did it start
An innocent child with a thorn in his heart
What kind of world do we live in
When love is divided by hate
Losing control of our feeling
We all must be dreaming this life away
In a world so cold
Are you sane
Where is the shame
A moment of time passes by
You cannot rewind who's to blame
When did it start
Is there a cure for your sickness
Have you no heart
I don't believe men are born to be killers
I don't believe the world can't be saved
How did you get here and when did it start
An innocent child with a thorn in his heart
What kind of world do we live in
When love is divided by hate
Loosing control of our feeling
Dreaming this life away
What kind of world do we live in
When love is divided by hate
We all must be dreaming this life away
In a world so cold
There's a sickness inside you that wants to escape
It's a feeling you get when you can't find your way
So how many times must you fall to your knees
Never, Never, Never, Never, Never do this again
It starts with pain (with pain)
Followed by hate (followed by hate)
I don't believe men are born to be killers
I don't believe the world can't be saved
What kind of world do we live in
When love is divided by hate
Losing control of our feeling
were dreaming this life away
What kind of world do we live in
When love is divided by hate
Selling our souls for no reason
We all must be dreaming his life away
In a world so cold, in a world so cold
This Friday, my cousin tried to commit suicide for the second time. I did not have to go and see her in the hospital this time, my mom went by herself and left me to watch my sisters and other boy cousin. Without knowing it, I figured out what had happened and ina rage, threw it in their face and made them cry because they were scared. My sister said that I looked ravenous for blood or pain...I guess I was.
We got in a fight though I did at last tell them the fact that I was suicidal and hated looking in the mirror some mornings. I told them about the old days of sitting in the bathroom with chemicals and willing myself to drink them. My sister(the baby) admitted that she wanted to cut her wrists. She told me about how she wishes she could have the courage to take the blade and carve out her woes on her arms. I wanted to hold her and tell her that I understood but I just drew back against the wall and asked God, "Why?"
Went to my uncle's house today for his birthday. I didn't want to be there but in the end, I went out to the jumper and got in there to take care of my cousin. Later on, my cousin(the one who tried to kill herself) was there. I just couldn't talk to her. Talking to her, I thought I could smell the hospital, the charcoal, the gloves the despair.
I avoided her after that, I know she knows why I avoided her. She knows why I didn't hug her, kiss her cheek and pretend that she didn't break my heart again.
How do I deal with the fact that almost everyone in my family is suicidal, at least among the kids?
I tried telling my mom about my cousins, about my aunt and what she did while drunk, what she allowed. I wanted to tell her everything! But...when I tried, she pointed out that I looked bout ready to cry. I shoved back the thought of telling her and decided to be the little hardass she taught me to be.
How can I love life one day and God, and the next day...I feel like dying and forgetting that I ever knew this?
My cousin and I were molested by our cousins. She was forced to perform oral on one of her cousins when we were only 7. My sister was sat in the cousin's lap. Nothing more, I stopped them once they wanted me to lay naked in a bed. I stopped them, but its stopping them that has led me to depression. Why didn't I stop them sooner? Why didn't I tell my parents? My friend went through the same thing but with an uncle, she says that it was fear that kept it going, and fear that haunts us now...fear of being hated, thought to be dirty or worse...
I want Super...I want him to be here to actually hold him and just cry on his shoulder. I know he'd ask questions but at least he wouldn't complain about it. My 'brother' would never be able to understand...
I'll write more once I can calm my thoughts and I can put it all together.
I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun
With my wide eyes
I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this
Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me
Yeah
Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole
Lock the doors
Cause I like to capture this voice
it came to me tonight
So everyone will have a choice
And under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
We're at war
We live like this
Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me
Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole
Tower over me
Tower over me
And I'll take the truth at any cost
Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole
World so cold-12 Stones
It starts with pain
Followed by hate
Fueled by the endless questions no one can answer
A stain covers your heart, and tears you apart
Just like a sleeping cancer
I don't believe men are born to be killers
I don't believe the world can't be saved
How did you get here and when did it start
An innocent child with a thorn in his heart
What kind of world do we live in
When love is divided by hate
Losing control of our feeling
We all must be dreaming this life away
In a world so cold
Are you sane
Where is the shame
A moment of time passes by
You cannot rewind who's to blame
When did it start
Is there a cure for your sickness
Have you no heart
I don't believe men are born to be killers
I don't believe the world can't be saved
How did you get here and when did it start
An innocent child with a thorn in his heart
What kind of world do we live in
When love is divided by hate
Loosing control of our feeling
Dreaming this life away
What kind of world do we live in
When love is divided by hate
We all must be dreaming this life away
In a world so cold
There's a sickness inside you that wants to escape
It's a feeling you get when you can't find your way
So how many times must you fall to your knees
Never, Never, Never, Never, Never do this again
It starts with pain (with pain)
Followed by hate (followed by hate)
I don't believe men are born to be killers
I don't believe the world can't be saved
What kind of world do we live in
When love is divided by hate
Losing control of our feeling
were dreaming this life away
What kind of world do we live in
When love is divided by hate
Selling our souls for no reason
We all must be dreaming his life away
In a world so cold, in a world so cold
This Friday, my cousin tried to commit suicide for the second time. I did not have to go and see her in the hospital this time, my mom went by herself and left me to watch my sisters and other boy cousin. Without knowing it, I figured out what had happened and ina rage, threw it in their face and made them cry because they were scared. My sister said that I looked ravenous for blood or pain...I guess I was.
We got in a fight though I did at last tell them the fact that I was suicidal and hated looking in the mirror some mornings. I told them about the old days of sitting in the bathroom with chemicals and willing myself to drink them. My sister(the baby) admitted that she wanted to cut her wrists. She told me about how she wishes she could have the courage to take the blade and carve out her woes on her arms. I wanted to hold her and tell her that I understood but I just drew back against the wall and asked God, "Why?"
Went to my uncle's house today for his birthday. I didn't want to be there but in the end, I went out to the jumper and got in there to take care of my cousin. Later on, my cousin(the one who tried to kill herself) was there. I just couldn't talk to her. Talking to her, I thought I could smell the hospital, the charcoal, the gloves the despair.
I avoided her after that, I know she knows why I avoided her. She knows why I didn't hug her, kiss her cheek and pretend that she didn't break my heart again.
How do I deal with the fact that almost everyone in my family is suicidal, at least among the kids?
I tried telling my mom about my cousins, about my aunt and what she did while drunk, what she allowed. I wanted to tell her everything! But...when I tried, she pointed out that I looked bout ready to cry. I shoved back the thought of telling her and decided to be the little hardass she taught me to be.
How can I love life one day and God, and the next day...I feel like dying and forgetting that I ever knew this?
My cousin and I were molested by our cousins. She was forced to perform oral on one of her cousins when we were only 7. My sister was sat in the cousin's lap. Nothing more, I stopped them once they wanted me to lay naked in a bed. I stopped them, but its stopping them that has led me to depression. Why didn't I stop them sooner? Why didn't I tell my parents? My friend went through the same thing but with an uncle, she says that it was fear that kept it going, and fear that haunts us now...fear of being hated, thought to be dirty or worse...
I want Super...I want him to be here to actually hold him and just cry on his shoulder. I know he'd ask questions but at least he wouldn't complain about it. My 'brother' would never be able to understand...
I'll write more once I can calm my thoughts and I can put it all together.