Supreme pizza
Ok, quick run through of the day:
Psychology: Friend didn't show up and so we did a skit about histrionic personality disorder. Had fun though our teacher did act just a little on the funny side.
Chemistry: It was pretty fun running a quick lab though Josh, (a friend of a friend) wanted or rather needed some reassurance that a mutual friend will be ok because of the chemo he has to endure. I played with a guy's ear and it was pretty funny because he is convinced that no one should have so much energy:P
Lunch: So many hugs and plenty of tickling! It was amazing. I was so happy and I could sit and smile realizing that things have really improved ever since a little R&R. You know, I took care of a lot of issues and really sat down to reflect.
Math: May have snoozed a little but I understood what we were doing and it all makes sense now. My friend was hyper and I wasn't which was a pleasant change. I got almost all my work done so that will be a big help this weekend since I want to get plenty of rest.
After school: So uber happy that we're moving soon. Its a house! An actual yard, garage and backyard. I can finally have a garden!!
-sigh- So ok, I admit I have been really melodramatic lately and I guess I just wanted some attention and had hoped that people would simply be intuitive...well, better yet it is to just stay calm and stick to those friends who will actually care because they know how to tell when something isn't ok. (It helps that it is those very same people I confide in to know what is going on...)
A friend, Eric, has been a great help to get me calm. When I started spazzing about heat, he told me that I needed to do somethign to relax and I followed his advice. I changed into cooler clothes, sat by a cool window and washed up. It helped alot and in the end I was able to handle those minor things I was having trouble with.
I don't like worrying my friends when there is already so much stress...I've stuck to my guns and though I did sink into funk, I was able to find a way up to breathe and find someone who could remind me that I needed to be calm and patient.
A friend threatened suicide last night...an ex. Well, I did my best to help him but in the end, I ended up hurt because in all reality, I don't matter enough to even provide influence or reason to change. He has found his reason and though he was harsh towards me, I was more concerned with talking to Super.
I miss Super so much. I hate it when he takes forever to return but everytime he does, he always treats me like a kid who needs a hand to hold. He scares away all the bad guys and simply tries to get me to be my old naive self that believes in true love and in fairy tales. He may say he's crazy but underneath it all...he's a great guy who has always been there for me.
The night I was alone and no one knew that I had a bottle of pills, the night I was afraid that my friend was truly gravely sick. He was even there to remind me that I was only human...
Life is great
Life is wonderful
Life is what you make it
Damnit, I am a writer and I know that I can do whatever I want and I will be the soul that changes the world for the better!
Psychology: Friend didn't show up and so we did a skit about histrionic personality disorder. Had fun though our teacher did act just a little on the funny side.
Chemistry: It was pretty fun running a quick lab though Josh, (a friend of a friend) wanted or rather needed some reassurance that a mutual friend will be ok because of the chemo he has to endure. I played with a guy's ear and it was pretty funny because he is convinced that no one should have so much energy:P
Lunch: So many hugs and plenty of tickling! It was amazing. I was so happy and I could sit and smile realizing that things have really improved ever since a little R&R. You know, I took care of a lot of issues and really sat down to reflect.
Math: May have snoozed a little but I understood what we were doing and it all makes sense now. My friend was hyper and I wasn't which was a pleasant change. I got almost all my work done so that will be a big help this weekend since I want to get plenty of rest.
After school: So uber happy that we're moving soon. Its a house! An actual yard, garage and backyard. I can finally have a garden!!
-sigh- So ok, I admit I have been really melodramatic lately and I guess I just wanted some attention and had hoped that people would simply be intuitive...well, better yet it is to just stay calm and stick to those friends who will actually care because they know how to tell when something isn't ok. (It helps that it is those very same people I confide in to know what is going on...)
A friend, Eric, has been a great help to get me calm. When I started spazzing about heat, he told me that I needed to do somethign to relax and I followed his advice. I changed into cooler clothes, sat by a cool window and washed up. It helped alot and in the end I was able to handle those minor things I was having trouble with.
I don't like worrying my friends when there is already so much stress...I've stuck to my guns and though I did sink into funk, I was able to find a way up to breathe and find someone who could remind me that I needed to be calm and patient.
A friend threatened suicide last night...an ex. Well, I did my best to help him but in the end, I ended up hurt because in all reality, I don't matter enough to even provide influence or reason to change. He has found his reason and though he was harsh towards me, I was more concerned with talking to Super.
I miss Super so much. I hate it when he takes forever to return but everytime he does, he always treats me like a kid who needs a hand to hold. He scares away all the bad guys and simply tries to get me to be my old naive self that believes in true love and in fairy tales. He may say he's crazy but underneath it all...he's a great guy who has always been there for me.
The night I was alone and no one knew that I had a bottle of pills, the night I was afraid that my friend was truly gravely sick. He was even there to remind me that I was only human...
Life is great
Life is wonderful
Life is what you make it
Damnit, I am a writer and I know that I can do whatever I want and I will be the soul that changes the world for the better!