Today continued...
I went to work today and was given my paycheck which turned out to be very sad because it wasn't as big as I had wanted. Following that, I had two older guys grab my hand and tell me that I was beautiful which was actually quite endearing. Funny thing, is that it was hot as hell, so I am now three different shades of brown. LoL. But anyways, at one point it was so hot and there was this one guy (who I'm getting a crush on) who kept making fun of me because he gets to work in the shade and I don't (not because my boss hates me, its just thw job I signed up for). But anyways, finally it got to be too much that I went and pretended to wash my hands and then scooped a little bit of water in my palm and went to pour it down his back and massaged his neck with my nails for extra measure.^_^
He yelped and cringed. He said that it had felt good but to never do it again because it has also felt like there had been spiders walking across his neck.
Ok, so this guy is about five inches taller than me, darker than me by about four shades and has the cutest smile! He's kind of on the chunky side but he's so sweet! Also, he lives on his own and is only a few years older than me. I really want him to think that I'm cute...so I try dressing kind of cute for work and we flirt alot but that's all it is...flirting.
When I got home, my 'brother' was over and it became obvious that he had missed us. He didn't feel to welcome in other homes for as long and he also just wanted to talk and have someone care so much that they will sit down and cry with him. Well, he stayed and left just a few moments ago after picking up his things and promising to come over a little more often.
I'm about to continue writing my story and hoping that soon, someone will see and understand that I am truely so happy!
I may have lost a great teacher this week and things may have been horrible and no one has cared for my problems because there are greater issues but I matter! I may sometimes want people there to witness my strengthening but I realize that I make things happen and that that is all I will ever need.
Prom is tonight but I'm not going, I'll go next year and hopefully by that time, I have a really great guy who I can go with who will see me for the new age princess I am.
I am new age!! I shall forever remain the illusion that no one can get...except one great man who will at last see that I do not need completion, I simply need someone.
He yelped and cringed. He said that it had felt good but to never do it again because it has also felt like there had been spiders walking across his neck.
Ok, so this guy is about five inches taller than me, darker than me by about four shades and has the cutest smile! He's kind of on the chunky side but he's so sweet! Also, he lives on his own and is only a few years older than me. I really want him to think that I'm cute...so I try dressing kind of cute for work and we flirt alot but that's all it is...flirting.
When I got home, my 'brother' was over and it became obvious that he had missed us. He didn't feel to welcome in other homes for as long and he also just wanted to talk and have someone care so much that they will sit down and cry with him. Well, he stayed and left just a few moments ago after picking up his things and promising to come over a little more often.
I'm about to continue writing my story and hoping that soon, someone will see and understand that I am truely so happy!
I may have lost a great teacher this week and things may have been horrible and no one has cared for my problems because there are greater issues but I matter! I may sometimes want people there to witness my strengthening but I realize that I make things happen and that that is all I will ever need.
Prom is tonight but I'm not going, I'll go next year and hopefully by that time, I have a really great guy who I can go with who will see me for the new age princess I am.
I am new age!! I shall forever remain the illusion that no one can get...except one great man who will at last see that I do not need completion, I simply need someone.