Oh what a fucking cruel world!
So here I am with some kinda flu practically fucking dying mind you, and no one to take care of me mind you my mother can't really cause she's been sick too and my brother is in Sask. so he can't either and well my dad is out of the country so really I have no choice. But one little girl We'll call Claire has been staying with me since my dad has been away and she can't get off the fucking phone to help me when I have a coughing fit or clean up the house which she too has messed up and since I've been sick I find I have no energy and get dizzy spells even with my attempts to clean up, it's so fucking unfair why do i have to play host all the time. Last night Claire and I went to Subway walking there was ok but still a bit painful, Walking back however she walked many feet in front of me not caring about what would happen to me cause she was talking on the phone with her latest crush I do not exaggerate when i say I stopped myself many times from collapsing because i know she wouldn't have noticed. The cars passing on my right side had a better chance of stopping and coming to see what was wrong with me, that's how far she was ahead of me. when she realizes how far back I was she finally stops and when I reached her my lungs were stinging and I was gasping for air even when she asked what was ok I ignored her question because of how angry I was that she can't for 10 fucking minutes crawl out of her self-absorbed whiny my bf doesn't like me world and help out a friend who she's know since grade 7. Which brings me to another point since she's not getting the attention from the bf she has she finds comfort in flirting with all my guy friends. Usually I don't care cause they're just friends right? Wrong. She finds it neccesary to talk sexually to all of them including one friend whom I've liked for over 2 months now and he likes me but due to some circumstances the chances of us being together isn't in the books right now. And yes she knew this she knew I cared for Evan (we'll call him) and that I wanted to be with him and him with me. I caught her....for a lack of a better word...."cybering" with him details that made me upset and sick to my stomach. I was disgusted and hurt because he too was joining in (not because he fully wanted too only because she had told him that it was ok by me and well men sorry to say if you have their full attention then you'd be damned if you couldn't convince him to do things)....in reading what they were writing Claire thinking it was a big joke I stomped off upstairs and claimed to be busy for the rest of the night telling her to tell him that I didn't want to speak to him. Something possessed me to talk to him. After 20 minutes of arguing we finally settle our differences with me saying I Had no right to get angry after all I wasn't his girlfriend and him saying no that it was his fault and he should've known better being that he felt bad for what happened we agreed to not talk to each other for a day or two to let things cool off. Claire came back down and gave me a look (yes I expected an apology from her after all it was her that instigated it and yes Evan is a male (enough said) he had apologized she sat there and had the nerve to say "what?" and have a look of 'I didn't do anything.' Today is the day i celebrate my mom's and my best friend's birthday i bought a cake and everything and I'm making a supper to go with it and guess who conveniently has to work. She didn't clean up a little last night and then leave me the rest. Especially when I haven't asked her for any type of money just a little cleanliness. She can't even help the day before a dinner where I'm celebrating birthdays especially when I'm sick and less capable of doing what I usually can do. I'm tired of it all I'm tired of her moving in on what i want and her not helping me with chores in my house. When Lord? when will I get a break?... Thank God Brittany(my best friend) is coming over to stay I know she will help me out....