it's all a matter of time
it's beginning to get better, even if first it needs to get worse.
This week, actually tomorrow, I go in... to the doctors, again, and they take a piece of me, and they see what they see, and then I'll know.
But until I know what's going on exactly, I have birthday this weekend... trying not to stress out about anything so it'll be enjoyable.
It will be weird being away from Miami on my birthday, but I'm sure it'll all work out.
I'm still in love.... it's not a mutual love.... but I can't help but be there, even if alone.
Sometimes a feeling of helplessness overwhelms me, those moments come more and more frequent now.
I pray... a lot more now than I used to... it's theraputic.
I have all these ideas/thoughts/emotions/feelins/dreams.... constantly filling my mind, when will they just stop? Do I really want them to? Should I just begin dealing with them instead of pushing them away? Where do I begin?
Lack of sincerity is becoming more and more apparent... that bothers me, it worries me.... it's disturbing.
Life is complex and complicated... but I learn each day, and I know things, no matter how big or small, will all work out... it's all a matter of time...
This week, actually tomorrow, I go in... to the doctors, again, and they take a piece of me, and they see what they see, and then I'll know.
But until I know what's going on exactly, I have birthday this weekend... trying not to stress out about anything so it'll be enjoyable.
It will be weird being away from Miami on my birthday, but I'm sure it'll all work out.
I'm still in love.... it's not a mutual love.... but I can't help but be there, even if alone.
Sometimes a feeling of helplessness overwhelms me, those moments come more and more frequent now.
I pray... a lot more now than I used to... it's theraputic.
I have all these ideas/thoughts/emotions/feelins/dreams.... constantly filling my mind, when will they just stop? Do I really want them to? Should I just begin dealing with them instead of pushing them away? Where do I begin?
Lack of sincerity is becoming more and more apparent... that bothers me, it worries me.... it's disturbing.
Life is complex and complicated... but I learn each day, and I know things, no matter how big or small, will all work out... it's all a matter of time...