just casue i feel like it
well , Another post.. just so you all don't just go for the confusing one i posted before this...
anyway... sometimes i post just to post.. and i guess this is one of those times. recently i've been looking at how things are going. why is it that i feel like i'm waking in a world of saint people... yet i'm the only saine one... well.. not th eonly .. but one of the few. I try to see things from other peoples points of view.. and i keep trying to figure it out... me and my siblings are very simaler... we have the same core values, and morals. But when you look at the socity at a whole most of those values seem lost. when i do date... i like to do things that would make her smile.. no things that would make her think i'm THUG, or something like that...
I don't know if it's true.. but i think that that sorta makes me stick out... i'm not normal.. and people tend to not know how to deal with that. yesterday i talked to a girl on the phone.. she said Waz up? ... i said he ceiling.... she said "gezzz.. i mena whats going on?" i said the microwave. she said " Hand the phone back to alex" .... and that i was too scarstick for her... i was being a realist... i mena Come-on :)
I walk in this world like i'm a blind man... trying to find a glimps of light.. but all i can see is a black curtain that shields everything...
i'm lost, and if i can just make it around the corner i feel like i'll be able to fix it. i know i can't.. i know that ... but i can't help but feel it... i'm in love.... but ... i can't come to trems with it... i'm in love with... someone... and the thought of that.
Am i going crazy? am i just going to some day crack? have i cracked? maybe it is a dream... maybe it's a movie... Maybe... maybe alot of things.. .but only one hing can be for sure... Tommorow i will wake up... put on my shoes and head out the door... as i fire-up my car, i'll feel a sigh.... of another day of my life... another 8 hours... that will be turned in for Cash... that i will trade to company
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i want to make somthing out of my life.. but i don't feel i have the prower to do this.. ifeel like my head is too full of ideas to pick out just one.. i wihs i could find tiemt o just sit down for 3 days and just Write... so nonstop build a storie from top to bottom on paper.. and make a world that never existed before i made it... One that everyone would read about and think of in there days as they work on.. waiting to return to my world..
a world created by me... seems like abit of an ego trip... but it's more of an accepatnce thing.. i just want people to accept my writing.. to accept that this world... is build on princable that came from me.. and that it's all based in my crappy grammer writing. with mispelling every page.. and confusin tied in plots and story builders...
Someday.. some day soon i will get this done... some day i will find my time to write... and i will make a story... not for the people that read it.. but for me... just so i can say i did it.. that i accomplished it. it's my turn around the corner... the light in the Dark... i might write something after this...
anyway... sometimes i post just to post.. and i guess this is one of those times. recently i've been looking at how things are going. why is it that i feel like i'm waking in a world of saint people... yet i'm the only saine one... well.. not th eonly .. but one of the few. I try to see things from other peoples points of view.. and i keep trying to figure it out... me and my siblings are very simaler... we have the same core values, and morals. But when you look at the socity at a whole most of those values seem lost. when i do date... i like to do things that would make her smile.. no things that would make her think i'm THUG, or something like that...
I don't know if it's true.. but i think that that sorta makes me stick out... i'm not normal.. and people tend to not know how to deal with that. yesterday i talked to a girl on the phone.. she said Waz up? ... i said he ceiling.... she said "gezzz.. i mena whats going on?" i said the microwave. she said " Hand the phone back to alex" .... and that i was too scarstick for her... i was being a realist... i mena Come-on :)
I walk in this world like i'm a blind man... trying to find a glimps of light.. but all i can see is a black curtain that shields everything...
i'm lost, and if i can just make it around the corner i feel like i'll be able to fix it. i know i can't.. i know that ... but i can't help but feel it... i'm in love.... but ... i can't come to trems with it... i'm in love with... someone... and the thought of that.
Am i going crazy? am i just going to some day crack? have i cracked? maybe it is a dream... maybe it's a movie... Maybe... maybe alot of things.. .but only one hing can be for sure... Tommorow i will wake up... put on my shoes and head out the door... as i fire-up my car, i'll feel a sigh.... of another day of my life... another 8 hours... that will be turned in for Cash... that i will trade to company
...
i want to make somthing out of my life.. but i don't feel i have the prower to do this.. ifeel like my head is too full of ideas to pick out just one.. i wihs i could find tiemt o just sit down for 3 days and just Write... so nonstop build a storie from top to bottom on paper.. and make a world that never existed before i made it... One that everyone would read about and think of in there days as they work on.. waiting to return to my world..
a world created by me... seems like abit of an ego trip... but it's more of an accepatnce thing.. i just want people to accept my writing.. to accept that this world... is build on princable that came from me.. and that it's all based in my crappy grammer writing. with mispelling every page.. and confusin tied in plots and story builders...
Someday.. some day soon i will get this done... some day i will find my time to write... and i will make a story... not for the people that read it.. but for me... just so i can say i did it.. that i accomplished it. it's my turn around the corner... the light in the Dark... i might write something after this...