tIme ticks by and the pictures fade

[lathinx]

Well, if any one is reading this... which i hope at least one of you do... I set myself a date... to leave if i didn't get on my feet... i feell i' m starting to over stay my welcome... and my plan so far has worked... except for the one factor i had little controle of... someone hireing me... which has yet to happen... saterday is the last of this month... the last of this month... and perhaps the last of tallahassee for awile... do get me wronge i'm loving it up here. thst is.. loving tallahassee.... but longing to be with my friends... not too long ago i away though that my friends needed me... but the more and more i'm away from them the more i see that i need them more. all my freinds had other friends... frineds i never met.. freinds that i didn't hang out with them with... but... they where my friends.. they all knew each other.. for better of for worst.. thay where part of my family... and i miss my family. I miss my brother and my sister(s). Before i moved i felt empty... like hallow, but i think i found that thing that i was looking for. Insperation. My whole life... i have never been Ross... I never been cause i never was, I was someone else.. some one that stories where writen about. I not that... i'm someone who writes stories. I think this has been the biggest part of my writing. It took my brother and myself debating over movie ideas for me to see this. in all my stories i see me as the main char.. and ther for i want to make them a wall of emotion... and ball of strength.. why? becasue thats me... I want to be that. i want to prosite those godly imortal abiltys so i can shoot fire balls from my hands and drink the nector which is magic... i want to be that... or atleast i did... To shorten all of this to 1 line... "Hello world, I'm back"

Now in saying that... i have something else to say... I don't know if i'm home sick, But i am friend sick. I miss you all.. Alex, Lauren, Emmaul... and yes even khris and maddy...
I'm thinking of buying a bus ticket and comething home... The place i think of as home... it isn't where i hang my hat... it's where my friends hang theres... Srota a dumb thing for an antisolo hermet to say... but I spent 18 years making friends and all i got is 3 1/2 but i made sure that they are all Grade A material. Well i guess reply to this if you want... if not.. well at lest i've said this... I think i might be coming home... for renfest... as well as ... well... ya know.. i've never been one to admite defeet... ( i guess it must be the lauren in me :P )... but i think I'v been D-D-D--Df--Def-- de- fe-ed-- Ugh... can't say it...

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Well it's offical... i'm not pure...

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