Pointless efforts with sincerely good intentions. I'm learning things about myself as time goes by. I want what I can't have and don't want what I can get easily. I like challenges, I like to be tested mentally, emotionally, physically. Fairly competitive in nature. I have a good heart but some question my intentions which bothers me. I have no intentions. I have no intention of being with anyone, which leads me to believe that I'm often misunderstood. I can't point the finger of blame because I rarely discuss how I feel about people unless it's negative. I don't need a motive for what I do just a good heart in my cage and a brain in my skull. I'm set. I'm having great times with great people. Sure there's things I'd like to tweak but oh well. I'm starting to become very busy, I'm no longer a recluse!