May 07, 2004 12:25
(in the light of the clock radio screen
you find the best answers
unrequieted lover themes
that reach high decibals with their screams
in 4 different languages
earth shattereing green shirts
that frame your skin unllovely
hug the sculpture of your favorite whale
that dieda miraculous death
or accidental poisoning
in its chambers
its good to get out feelings
while hugging a brass sculpture
that takes like nickel
you dot your i's with x's
so your descent will be faster
and more secure
we all know the urn you made in art is for you
escaping through cremation is the cowards way out
like escaping through verbal justification is not)
---things are better now.
that self inflicted gash is a scar.
and the area around it smiles with all the smaller scars.
my thigh cries everytime i pick at it.
and i wish i wasnt a cutter.
and ill show my mom soon.
hardcore show tomorrow.
and god - boys fucked me over this week.
synopsis of what charles has said to me: "i found a new girl. she is my other half.
lets have a threesome.
i love you. i love you. i love you."
chris (cokehead) came to see me at my school - ditched to see me.
jake called me to apologize.
dad makes fun of clothes more then ever.
this week was make shanti cry week.