this is what living like this does.

[latestwhore]

Undeclared prettygirl, what happens when the cutting turns into gashing? And not the kind of make up gash that so many like to practice across grimaced faces - the kind where the skin is so broken you can see where the veins lie beneath and there is no scab over the cut because its too deep and its too wide and it just stopped bleeding 20 minutes

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[deviantways]

this made my cry. your mom should've never said that, that's terrible. you don't deserve to feel that way. please take good care of your wounds and get help, seriously. you're hurting way too much. :(

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[latestwhore]

"why did i laugh so hard, baby...i didnt mean to hurt you"
i didnt mean to make you cry.
i guess people are right when they say i can evoke emotion with the things i write, and that i really can make it writing for a band or for anything.
i dont know why you say i dont deserve to feel this way because i think i do.
my wounds will heal and so will i.
thank you.
love.

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[deviantways]

i cried because i care and i'm worried. you really don't deserve to hurt and i know your wounds would heal but i don't think you need anymore. :/ <3

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[latestwhore]

thank you then.
thank you more then you will ever know.

[xgunfuck]

shanti when you showed me that yesterday...i got scared. i know. i do it too... so im used to seeing cuts on my skin but that scared me. i've never seen something like that before. i can honestly say that i woould miss you dont ever talk about "it would be better if i weren't here" it scares me. i would miss you so much..you've made a big impact on me. you've changed little things about me. i've learned a lot about myself through you and others. you make me smile and everyday no matter how crappy my first three classes are it doesn't matter because i get to see shanti in 4th period and even if i feel like shit she'll make me smile because she's so funny. you're so funny, you're so random, you understand..you understand me too much sometimes and it scares me..in a good way:D i've needed someone like that. sometimes when im out doing something i stop and think..man it would be better if shanti was here. you know? because it would be...like going to johnny rockets isn't the same without you. or like...having food fall in my crotch

[cigarettesinbed]

that totally almost made me cry,
i think i would have gotten strange looks from my coworks had i cried.
please take care of yourself doll, it makes me sad to see you hurting.
know there are people who care about you okay?
<33

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[latestwhore]

screw those coworkers! hahaha...man if i was at work, my coworkers would think i was a freak half the time. im always breaking out in song and dancing.
i know people care about me and thats what makes it worse.
thank you.
<333333

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[cigarettesinbed]

hahah we totally sing and do weird ass shit here!!
it's awesome.
you're very welcome doll. <3333

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[latestwhore]

dude, can i work with you?

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[latestwhore]

i dont understand.
i just...dont.

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[latestwhore]

why you care.
im sorry if that sounds callous.
but im searching for my friends right now.