Jan 11, 2009 14:49
and some days I don't miss my family.
and some days I do.
and some days I think I'd feel better if I tried harder.
most days I know it's not true.
If knowing what you have prevents you from getting what you want, what do you do? Do you leave what you have: the history, the reliability? Or do you forgo, reach for what you want and hope it all won't fail you?
My pro/con lists are telling me to go for what I want. Its not like I have anything to lose....really. Its never really about the place. We constantly put emphasis on the importance of being here or there, this city or that one. Its never really about here or there, its about who we surround ourselves with. The people that make us want to live bigger, live stronger. Its about heart and mind. Its about haves and wants and needs. Being particularly anywhere means nothing if you don't have someone to share it with. Having different random experiences means nothing if they aren't true.
I guess I just would like to be, to share.
The bottom line is that I haven't really spoken in days, because no one cares...no one has heart like me.