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why do i have a do it later attitude i dont like it and i dont want it and i hate that it is stoping me from doing what i want because i'm blind and some how dont see that if i want to be a great artist i have to try now not wait till later to start i'm surprised i'm at an art school because the way i'm acting is like i'm an eternal couch potato why has a job she hates and is stuck in a life she doesnt want. but i know that all my life is is what i made it. i created this my master work is a paranoid girl isn't happy where she is so at every chance escapes to connecticut. it sucks to find the place in the world where your really happy and then have to leave and go back to a place where you don't think your really wanted. i mean i love my friends here their so much fun to be with but i always feel like most of them dont want to be arround me like i'm some looser they pitty. and its not their fault its that i have no self esteam at home and i dont know why. fuck