Hardest of Hearts: As the World Turns fic; Reid/Luke
Title: Hardest of Hearts
Author: erikssiren
Fandom: As the World Turns
Characters/Pairings: Luke/Reid, mention of past Luke/Noah
Rating: PG-13
Summary/Prompt: "Darling heart, I loved you from the start." - Hardest of Hearts by Florence and The Machine
Author's Notes: Written for the fourth prompt round at lureficresource. I've never written in this tense before, so I don't know if it works but I didn't feel like sending it to my beta (sorry, laurahellomoto!) Please let me know what you think!
When Luke asks Reid when he fell in love with him, the doctor doesn't hesitate in his response.
"The first time we met."
Instead of love, all Luke feels is guilt. Guilt for not having the same instantaneous connection, guilt for having been too blinded by Noah to truly see Reid has he apparently saw Luke. Looking back, Luke can't find a moment in the beginning when his hatred was actually a mask for more amorous feelings.
"This is the part where you tell me," Reid whispers and Luke realizes he's been silent in his thoughts too long. Luke shrugs, his skin still slick from sweat rubbing against Reid's. He stares at the ceiling, at their tangled feet, at the clock; anything but Reid's eyes because he knows when he does, Reid will know and Reid will be disappointed. And Luke fears he has disappointed Reid too many times for them to survive another.
"Luke." The word is too sharp and too understanding. Fingers that had not long ago brought him to the edge with skillful strokes now press the underside of his chin, forcing Luke's eyes up. He falls into the emotional depth of those striking blue eyes for a moment, sighing as he realizes he can't ignore this. He brought it up, after all.
"In the elevator," he says simply and can see the memory flash before Reid's eyes. "I had never seen so much of you before. You let me in, and I knew I was one of the only ones you let see that side of you. And I knew then I wasn't going to be able to let you go."
A small smile lights up Reid's face, open and trusting as it only is with Luke. He places a chase kiss on Luke's lips, still swollen from Reid's bruising kisses and his teeth mangling them as he tried to keep from letting the whole hotel how much of a god Reid Oliver is.
The doctor pulls Luke to him, their bodies molding together as though they were pieces of a puzzle, made to belong only to each other. Warm breath cascades down Luke's neck as Reid falls asleep, leaving Luke alone with his tumbling thoughts.
With Noah it had been instant sparks: the moment they touched, he knew. With Reid it had been slow, the anticipation making the result a pleasurable combustion. And still, after everything he has gone through with both men, Luke falls asleep not knowing which is better.
Author: erikssiren
Fandom: As the World Turns
Characters/Pairings: Luke/Reid, mention of past Luke/Noah
Rating: PG-13
Summary/Prompt: "Darling heart, I loved you from the start." - Hardest of Hearts by Florence and The Machine
Author's Notes: Written for the fourth prompt round at lureficresource. I've never written in this tense before, so I don't know if it works but I didn't feel like sending it to my beta (sorry, laurahellomoto!) Please let me know what you think!
When Luke asks Reid when he fell in love with him, the doctor doesn't hesitate in his response.
"The first time we met."
Instead of love, all Luke feels is guilt. Guilt for not having the same instantaneous connection, guilt for having been too blinded by Noah to truly see Reid has he apparently saw Luke. Looking back, Luke can't find a moment in the beginning when his hatred was actually a mask for more amorous feelings.
"This is the part where you tell me," Reid whispers and Luke realizes he's been silent in his thoughts too long. Luke shrugs, his skin still slick from sweat rubbing against Reid's. He stares at the ceiling, at their tangled feet, at the clock; anything but Reid's eyes because he knows when he does, Reid will know and Reid will be disappointed. And Luke fears he has disappointed Reid too many times for them to survive another.
"Luke." The word is too sharp and too understanding. Fingers that had not long ago brought him to the edge with skillful strokes now press the underside of his chin, forcing Luke's eyes up. He falls into the emotional depth of those striking blue eyes for a moment, sighing as he realizes he can't ignore this. He brought it up, after all.
"In the elevator," he says simply and can see the memory flash before Reid's eyes. "I had never seen so much of you before. You let me in, and I knew I was one of the only ones you let see that side of you. And I knew then I wasn't going to be able to let you go."
A small smile lights up Reid's face, open and trusting as it only is with Luke. He places a chase kiss on Luke's lips, still swollen from Reid's bruising kisses and his teeth mangling them as he tried to keep from letting the whole hotel how much of a god Reid Oliver is.
The doctor pulls Luke to him, their bodies molding together as though they were pieces of a puzzle, made to belong only to each other. Warm breath cascades down Luke's neck as Reid falls asleep, leaving Luke alone with his tumbling thoughts.
With Noah it had been instant sparks: the moment they touched, he knew. With Reid it had been slow, the anticipation making the result a pleasurable combustion. And still, after everything he has gone through with both men, Luke falls asleep not knowing which is better.