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i dont even know what to say to him...he lied to me...he still is with her and he called the other night..."just a night to have fun"...why did he say he wanted to kiss me...that he still had feelings...that he wanted to hold my hand as we walked to the car...asked me why i didnt sit with him in the back so we could be near each other...why does he always come back into my life and then rip it all away...sometimes i wonder why i pick the one guy in the world who is the toughest to get through to...why him...why do i still have feelings and feel like it doesnt matter what he does to me that i will always be ready to come back to him if he says the word? i honestly dont know!
im so sick of him coming back...i want so bad to get over him..then i think of the endless nights spent watching tv and movies together...the church services we painstakingly had to sit through...but we did it just so we could be near each other...nothing physical ever happened bc we were both too scared that we would ruin the amazing friendship we had...i havent found that feeling in anyone before...but even though he is breaking my heart...i will still be there for him if he says the word...i will drop everything to be with him.i wish that he could know the way i feel...but i have to go...ttyl
xoxo
cortney
im so sick of him coming back...i want so bad to get over him..then i think of the endless nights spent watching tv and movies together...the church services we painstakingly had to sit through...but we did it just so we could be near each other...nothing physical ever happened bc we were both too scared that we would ruin the amazing friendship we had...i havent found that feeling in anyone before...but even though he is breaking my heart...i will still be there for him if he says the word...i will drop everything to be with him.i wish that he could know the way i feel...but i have to go...ttyl
xoxo
cortney