fat.
I am so tired of myself...I feel like a giant ball of blubber all the time. :( All I want to do is eat, eat, eat, eat and eat some more. It's like an addiction and I don't know how to stop. I don't know what to do with myself. I try to exercise self control but it just doesn't work. I can't stop myself. I imagine this is what it's like to an alcoholic...or a drug addict. When they crave their vice...it over comes them. This is what food does to me. I am so miserable. I am so tired of being over weight. I'm so sick of being worried about my weight. And wearing clothes to try and cover it up when in the end I just look like shit all the time. I hate looking like shit...and feeling like shit.