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"How long before I get in?
Before it starts, before I begin?
How long before you decide?
Before I know what it feels like?
Where To, where do I go?
If you never try, then you'll never know.
How long do I have to climb,
Up on the side of this mountain of mine?
Look up, I look up at night,
Planets are moving at the speed of light.
Climb up, up in the trees,
every chance that you get,
is a chance you seize.
How long am I gonna stand,
with my head stuck under the sand?
I'll start before I can stop,
before I see things the right way up.
All that noise, and all that sound,
All those places I got found.
And birds go flying at the speed of sound,
to show you how it all began.
Birds came flying from the underground,
if you could see it then you'd understand?
Ideas that you'll never find,
All the inventors could never design.
The buildings that you put up,
Japan and China all lit up.
The sign that I couldn't read,
or a light that I couldn't see,
some things you have to believe,
but others are puzzles, puzzling me.
All that noise, and all that sound,
All those places I got found.
And birds go flying at the speed of sound,
to show you how it all began.
Birds came flying from the underground,
if you could see it then you'd understand,
ah when you see it then you'll understand?
All those signs, I knew what they meant.
Some things you can invent.
Some get made, and some get sent,
Ooh?
Birds go flying at the speed of sound,
to show you how it all began.
Birds came flying from the underground,
if you could see it then you'd understand,
ah, when you see it then you'll understand?
So i looked at the clock the other night and it said 3:30...i've been having this strange urge to just start walking and never come back. Something is pulling me out of myself. Maybe it's because i feel so trapped here, or maybe it's because i'm just bored. I think about it a lot at night, and it's really freaking me out, i'm like "dude you'd be tired by the time you made it to 675" so what are you trying to prove. Maybe it's because i love surprising people, maybe i just want to disappear and leave people wondering where i went. I mean if they didnt ask thats fine...it's not about attention. I just feel like theres so much more to see, so much more to do. Life feels so systematic, it feels so planned. I need change constantly, i think i feel like it'd be so easy to leave now and i'll never get these chances again because one day im going to be locked in somewhere. I hate when i feel forced into something. I love everything i have done in life, i dont want to live with regrets things happened for a reason no matter how fucking bad it hurt it was meant to be that way. It always worked out better in the end. One of these days it won't even matter and i hate that it is that way but thats life. Sometimes i have the realization that life has went on and im slowly coming out of the shitty run of the last 6 months but then i get hammered back down into dwelling on things i cannot change. I hate thinking about the past it's eating me up. Maybe thats what the running is about...im running from things that remind me of the past. I dont get to tell the 43987543 people i know that i love them all everyday, but i want them to know, i want them to know they all mean a bunch to me. I want to move on and be unafraid of the future. Whether i like it or not the future is coming. It won't stop time will move as it always has, even if i feel like things around me are getting to crazy it will not stop and wait for me to catch up. I need to grow up and enjoy life more than i have been lately. :)
A special someone brought me the new coldplay cd at 12:30 last night, the cd rocked but the visitor meant more.
Before it starts, before I begin?
How long before you decide?
Before I know what it feels like?
Where To, where do I go?
If you never try, then you'll never know.
How long do I have to climb,
Up on the side of this mountain of mine?
Look up, I look up at night,
Planets are moving at the speed of light.
Climb up, up in the trees,
every chance that you get,
is a chance you seize.
How long am I gonna stand,
with my head stuck under the sand?
I'll start before I can stop,
before I see things the right way up.
All that noise, and all that sound,
All those places I got found.
And birds go flying at the speed of sound,
to show you how it all began.
Birds came flying from the underground,
if you could see it then you'd understand?
Ideas that you'll never find,
All the inventors could never design.
The buildings that you put up,
Japan and China all lit up.
The sign that I couldn't read,
or a light that I couldn't see,
some things you have to believe,
but others are puzzles, puzzling me.
All that noise, and all that sound,
All those places I got found.
And birds go flying at the speed of sound,
to show you how it all began.
Birds came flying from the underground,
if you could see it then you'd understand,
ah when you see it then you'll understand?
All those signs, I knew what they meant.
Some things you can invent.
Some get made, and some get sent,
Ooh?
Birds go flying at the speed of sound,
to show you how it all began.
Birds came flying from the underground,
if you could see it then you'd understand,
ah, when you see it then you'll understand?
So i looked at the clock the other night and it said 3:30...i've been having this strange urge to just start walking and never come back. Something is pulling me out of myself. Maybe it's because i feel so trapped here, or maybe it's because i'm just bored. I think about it a lot at night, and it's really freaking me out, i'm like "dude you'd be tired by the time you made it to 675" so what are you trying to prove. Maybe it's because i love surprising people, maybe i just want to disappear and leave people wondering where i went. I mean if they didnt ask thats fine...it's not about attention. I just feel like theres so much more to see, so much more to do. Life feels so systematic, it feels so planned. I need change constantly, i think i feel like it'd be so easy to leave now and i'll never get these chances again because one day im going to be locked in somewhere. I hate when i feel forced into something. I love everything i have done in life, i dont want to live with regrets things happened for a reason no matter how fucking bad it hurt it was meant to be that way. It always worked out better in the end. One of these days it won't even matter and i hate that it is that way but thats life. Sometimes i have the realization that life has went on and im slowly coming out of the shitty run of the last 6 months but then i get hammered back down into dwelling on things i cannot change. I hate thinking about the past it's eating me up. Maybe thats what the running is about...im running from things that remind me of the past. I dont get to tell the 43987543 people i know that i love them all everyday, but i want them to know, i want them to know they all mean a bunch to me. I want to move on and be unafraid of the future. Whether i like it or not the future is coming. It won't stop time will move as it always has, even if i feel like things around me are getting to crazy it will not stop and wait for me to catch up. I need to grow up and enjoy life more than i have been lately. :)
A special someone brought me the new coldplay cd at 12:30 last night, the cd rocked but the visitor meant more.