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Re: hey this is Nikki (the other one)

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Hah yeah that always works when you are bored, I tend to find myself doing that once in a blue moon... Yeah I won't deny the fact of Craig being great and all that, he really is a good kid and very nice, and just someone you really want to be around no denying that... I know that he is a busy kid, that's why I never made plans with him... I knew he played every sport possible, because I talked with him when we weren't going out before and he told me about the sports he played and everything, and I thought that was awesome being a kid myself that loves sports just as much as him... but I never called him or any of that stuff because I didn't want attention and I knew he was busy which was fine with me, I'd rather see him succeeding the sports he plays and doing good at that then wasting time with me... I'd rather be at his games cheering him on if anything... I would tell him how I feel if I still liked him that way, but I don't like him that way... the distance really killed it... I don't want to try and get him back, things happen for a reason and I'm a firm believer on that no lie... yeah I'm not doing the friends with benefits being the fact that I will never see him again really.. and not planning on it... I thought about the night before we were suppose to go to the movies and we ended up not going and when I had the chance to think about the friends with benefits thing I was better off because of the fact that it wasn't good and it would be for all the wrong reasons... yeah maybe once in a blue moon I think about the fact that he broke up with me yadda yadda you know how that goes, but honestly... I don't miss anything, and I wouldn't try to get back with him... it's just things happen for a reason, he is in Goffstown and I'm not, it's just this is going to happen... we are just staying as friends and in the long run we are probably going to talk less, and see each other less till we no longer know each other but as memories... no lie I really think that... but I do not want to hook back up with him not because I think he is horrible, but I really have met someone new in my life, that I can see more, that I can appreciate more, that I can laugh hard with, that I don't have to suspect a lot from, that has a lot of the same interests, that has the same maturity level as myself, but has enough things about him to make him different so it's not like dating myself...and I really like him a lot, that is why I would not go out with Craig again probably... because I have met someone that I really get along with wicked good, who appreciates me for me, and I can appreciate himself for him... and I can cheer him on at track meets or anything and can see him everyday wither it be in school or outside at meetings over at Rockwell... but yeah I just really like this kid a lot like I can't explain... it might seem like I still like Craig, but just remember this post is old.. I haven't been good about updating things at all... but Craig is still forever in my heart no lie, I still got love for that kid, but really as a good friend and a good memory to look back on...

He probably won't realize the mistake because to him it wasn't a mistake.. I was not a mistake, and I'm not something he needs to be missing.. I'm not worth it... I never was and never will be..

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Thanks though for showing the concern it means a lot especially since if I had to talk to someone about Craig it can be with you because you know him just as well if not better then myself being the fact that you grew up with him... I use to live in Goffstown, that's my hometown baby! :):)