Failure
I just checked my school email account and noticed that my professor for my sw 665 class emailed my paper back to me with detailed feedback. Now, when I turned the paper in last Thursday, I knew it wasn't the best paper and I probably would do pretty poor on it. Well, I was right. My grade is turned out to be pretty low, so low that I don't even want to mention how many points out of 20 that I received.
My professor gave me a lot of feedback and tore me apart in the process. I just feel so horrible while reading her feedback. I don't remember in my whole life ever feeling so unworthy and stupid. I feel that I shouldn't even be taking this class. Many of my life experiences are few and far between, which makes me ponder my decisions and if I'm even ready for the big bad world of social work. That's if I will ever be ready. I am just so full of doubt and insecurity, it's more than I can stand.
I'm extremely disappointed in myself. I should have done better and their is no excuse big enough in the whole world to justify my errors.
I knew that this week was going to be a rough one due to the situation in my past two entries, but this just makes the start of my week even worse than I imagined it would be...
My professor gave me a lot of feedback and tore me apart in the process. I just feel so horrible while reading her feedback. I don't remember in my whole life ever feeling so unworthy and stupid. I feel that I shouldn't even be taking this class. Many of my life experiences are few and far between, which makes me ponder my decisions and if I'm even ready for the big bad world of social work. That's if I will ever be ready. I am just so full of doubt and insecurity, it's more than I can stand.
I'm extremely disappointed in myself. I should have done better and their is no excuse big enough in the whole world to justify my errors.
I knew that this week was going to be a rough one due to the situation in my past two entries, but this just makes the start of my week even worse than I imagined it would be...