I guess I'm just a heartbreaker
I have now realized that I have a love and hate relationship with text messages, receiving text meeages, and then not knowing if I should reply or not.
I've always been the girl who has been the friend or sister to guys. I'm like a lab partner or something, nothing more. I'm still the girl who has never had a boyfriend, never been kissed, and yet I am the girl who people come to for relationship advice. Go figure, huh? I don't take it for granted and a I am grateful that my friends know that they can depend on me and come to me in times of need. Learning to be a good listerner over the years has really paid off in a sense.
I know one day my time will come, and my friends will repay me by lending me their ears when I finally have some guy issues of my own.
Now you're probably wondering why I started off with my love/hate relationship with text messages. Well, I guess I actually have a little of an issue right now, and it all started this afternoon.
Last night my phone was dying, so I decided to turn it off and give it a long needed charge. It did get a much needed long charge since I didn't turn my phone on until about 2-2:30 this afternoon. When my phone was turned on I heard a noise which sounded that I had a text meeage. This text said it came in at 2:38pm today, but it mostly cmae late last night, and my phone will not recognize that time since it was turned off all night. Anyways, it was a text from Scott. And it said, "I know it's late, sorry, but I thought you should know how I feel." *sigh* I know exactly what that means, and if I didn't then I better check my gender at the door. Women are very intelligent and we know how to read things for the most part. Well, I read this text and didn't know if I should text him back. Obviously he has feelings for me, but I don't have any for him. He is one of my very good friends and I have known him for a really long time, since I was 16 to be exact. The only guy I have ever had feelings for in my close group of friends that I have now was Dave, oh, yeah, and then there was Dan, but he is a totally other story....
I just don't know what to do. He hwas called me twice tonight and I didn't feel like answering my phone. Oh, and by the way, did I mention that I am now talking to him online? *sigh* I should have never signed on. I knew he'd be online. So, I guess I will just get this over and done with now, right? I know I have to be honest with him. I don't want to lead him on at all, and if I have then I am extremely sorry for making him think otherwise. I just happen to be a sweet, nice, caring person (not trying to boost my ego at all right now), and it comes out when I talk to people. I can't change that about myself, nor would I want to. I just feel like crap because I don't want to hurt him. I know how it goes, I mean look what happened with Dave...everything is good though. I just know that Scott is lonely and sad because he is away from everyone being in the Navy and all. The funny thing is (ok, not really funny..) is that he is the only guy who has ever asked me out or told me has feelings for me. You'd think I'd be jumping at the chance since I have never had a boyfriend, but I just don't feel the same way that he does, besides I think my first relationship being long distance would not be very good for me.
I just don't know what to do or how to go about it. I know all the right things to say, I just don't want to say them, but I know I have to. I have to be honest. I guess I will see how this goes tonight.
I've always been the girl who has been the friend or sister to guys. I'm like a lab partner or something, nothing more. I'm still the girl who has never had a boyfriend, never been kissed, and yet I am the girl who people come to for relationship advice. Go figure, huh? I don't take it for granted and a I am grateful that my friends know that they can depend on me and come to me in times of need. Learning to be a good listerner over the years has really paid off in a sense.
I know one day my time will come, and my friends will repay me by lending me their ears when I finally have some guy issues of my own.
Now you're probably wondering why I started off with my love/hate relationship with text messages. Well, I guess I actually have a little of an issue right now, and it all started this afternoon.
Last night my phone was dying, so I decided to turn it off and give it a long needed charge. It did get a much needed long charge since I didn't turn my phone on until about 2-2:30 this afternoon. When my phone was turned on I heard a noise which sounded that I had a text meeage. This text said it came in at 2:38pm today, but it mostly cmae late last night, and my phone will not recognize that time since it was turned off all night. Anyways, it was a text from Scott. And it said, "I know it's late, sorry, but I thought you should know how I feel." *sigh* I know exactly what that means, and if I didn't then I better check my gender at the door. Women are very intelligent and we know how to read things for the most part. Well, I read this text and didn't know if I should text him back. Obviously he has feelings for me, but I don't have any for him. He is one of my very good friends and I have known him for a really long time, since I was 16 to be exact. The only guy I have ever had feelings for in my close group of friends that I have now was Dave, oh, yeah, and then there was Dan, but he is a totally other story....
I just don't know what to do. He hwas called me twice tonight and I didn't feel like answering my phone. Oh, and by the way, did I mention that I am now talking to him online? *sigh* I should have never signed on. I knew he'd be online. So, I guess I will just get this over and done with now, right? I know I have to be honest with him. I don't want to lead him on at all, and if I have then I am extremely sorry for making him think otherwise. I just happen to be a sweet, nice, caring person (not trying to boost my ego at all right now), and it comes out when I talk to people. I can't change that about myself, nor would I want to. I just feel like crap because I don't want to hurt him. I know how it goes, I mean look what happened with Dave...everything is good though. I just know that Scott is lonely and sad because he is away from everyone being in the Navy and all. The funny thing is (ok, not really funny..) is that he is the only guy who has ever asked me out or told me has feelings for me. You'd think I'd be jumping at the chance since I have never had a boyfriend, but I just don't feel the same way that he does, besides I think my first relationship being long distance would not be very good for me.
I just don't know what to do or how to go about it. I know all the right things to say, I just don't want to say them, but I know I have to. I have to be honest. I guess I will see how this goes tonight.