today...not over yet i guess
well today started off rathher niclely.I was hecka late and i listened to great music in the mornig and got a strawberry smoothie from caf'e via! like whoo! and then i hung out with Mike and attended my classes as usual.
I got offended by allot today and that seemed to bring me down. And then we went our usual route after school, which was ok. I mean there were some fun parts and all, i just hate going the same place all the time. I mean it's bad enough having to come home to a place that really really doese'nt suit me, but idk....It was'nt bad.
The weather was really pretty! and it reminded me of christmas. and i smiled.
but im still kinda depressed. too many people are in my house and trheir cleaning. and guess im still insulted and i feel so alone.I guess you could argue that im an outcast because i wanna be, but really...where do I trully fit in? I fit in in drama....and church....and with very few people, sometimes..it just seems like people just dont get me. and maybe its my fault, but my points are often taken the wrong way and i feel like people just oppose them to oppose me. idk, i just cant wait to get out of here.
i wanna live somewhere with a stage and a piano and allot of hiding places. with cold floors and odd ceilings. -smiles- yea, maybe not, but somewhere i can call home.
I got offended by allot today and that seemed to bring me down. And then we went our usual route after school, which was ok. I mean there were some fun parts and all, i just hate going the same place all the time. I mean it's bad enough having to come home to a place that really really doese'nt suit me, but idk....It was'nt bad.
The weather was really pretty! and it reminded me of christmas. and i smiled.
but im still kinda depressed. too many people are in my house and trheir cleaning. and guess im still insulted and i feel so alone.I guess you could argue that im an outcast because i wanna be, but really...where do I trully fit in? I fit in in drama....and church....and with very few people, sometimes..it just seems like people just dont get me. and maybe its my fault, but my points are often taken the wrong way and i feel like people just oppose them to oppose me. idk, i just cant wait to get out of here.
i wanna live somewhere with a stage and a piano and allot of hiding places. with cold floors and odd ceilings. -smiles- yea, maybe not, but somewhere i can call home.