I'm in a mood to melt houses...
My sister got married yesterday. It was a beautiful ceremony. I'm really honestly happy for them. I know she's only just turned 23, but she's happy, and he's happy. Everyone is happy but me.
I don't even really know why I'm not happy.
I just want people to stop fucking meddling with my life.
My (non)love life and my friends.
My favourite part of the evening was everyone asking if I was dating one of the photographers, a friend of mine from school.. yeah, that really didn't make me want to rip my veins out... it made him really uncomfortable. And both my dad and brother apparently pulled him aside and said things to him...
My dad was just kidding, but if you don't know him it would be taken badly.. He said today he wasn't weirded out by my dad or anyone. Seriously. But I don't really believe him. I think he just wants me to feel better about it.
I don't.
It also didn't help getting every second person asking if I were the next to get hitched. Yeah, no. No thanks. I have a few things to do first. And I need a person to marry.
I feel so overwhelmed with pressure and I feel might be doing most of it myself, but it's hard not to with all this.
Just leave me alone already. Seriously. I can't take anymore.
I feel more alone than ever.
I don't even really know why I'm not happy.
I just want people to stop fucking meddling with my life.
My (non)love life and my friends.
My favourite part of the evening was everyone asking if I was dating one of the photographers, a friend of mine from school.. yeah, that really didn't make me want to rip my veins out... it made him really uncomfortable. And both my dad and brother apparently pulled him aside and said things to him...
My dad was just kidding, but if you don't know him it would be taken badly.. He said today he wasn't weirded out by my dad or anyone. Seriously. But I don't really believe him. I think he just wants me to feel better about it.
I don't.
It also didn't help getting every second person asking if I were the next to get hitched. Yeah, no. No thanks. I have a few things to do first. And I need a person to marry.
I feel so overwhelmed with pressure and I feel might be doing most of it myself, but it's hard not to with all this.
Just leave me alone already. Seriously. I can't take anymore.
I feel more alone than ever.