Entry: *shakes head* That fucking box again.

[lastlament]

For some reason people need to put titles on things... put it in a neat little box and keep it in those confines... keeping everything in boxes like that confuses everything and destroys relationships. This suposed "comfort" box fucks with people's head (at least not mine in this case) and is begining to damage a relationship I am in... the fact you're really confused about our relationship is begining to create a strain... I don't know what to say anymore... i always hear a voice telling me not to go to livejournal and read your journal... and most of the time i was right in not wanting to because i walk away that much more heart strained... We have each other and that's all that should really matter right now... no? Yes i may be going away to college... but it is just as likely i will end up at FAU. Do you want to spend the rest of your life with me and is that why you're afraid of me leaving. I mean there are two avenues here... forever together or not... i am not taking a side on this... I am too young to think that long term, but its not like i am going to be gone forever when I go to Orlando. Maybe when I go away you can find someone less confusing for you that will be able to be in the box and that can actually make you happy... because i dont seem to be able to anymore. I feel like a failure of a boyfriend everytime I read your journal.... sigh.... Its weird that when i lower my walls you build yours... Can't we just be happy?

On a diffrent more happy note... I had the best band practice to date today.... we were amazing today and I am really happy with the direction we're begining to go.