Broken Hearts, Silver Linings, and Laughter
Ok, I'm starting out with anger.
I can't get over someone, for some reason, and it's freaking pissing me off!
I'm starting to think that if he had broke my heart more, it wouldn't feel like a piece of my heart is still intact and slowly tearing apart...
Maybe because he went back to her, I'm thinking he might come back to me, but our situations wouldn't have changed, so I'm delusional...this is all stupid.
And you know what's sick...sometimes, I revell (sp) in the pain, because it gives me inspiration to write and I don't know. At least I know now what lost love feels like, and no one can tell me that I don't know how it feels. One more experience, one more lesson, one less piece of me...*sigh*
(O, side note: the above fragment could be used as lyrics...yay. See, there is usefullness in pain). And from that pain, I wrote about people who constantly have girlfriends and boyfriends, and I'm thinking...how could you move on so quickly...are you sure those aren't just rebound feelings...or are you just conpensating for having nothing else. Times likes these reminds me of the reality show like the Bachelor or the Bachelorette; how can you have feelings for multiple people? Not trying to be mean, just being curious, but of course, curiosity killed the cat, so where does that leave me?
"You constantly need attention, so you fall in love easily.
You're always with someone, claiming to carry your heart on your sleeve,
but when one goes another one comes just as easily.
There's no time to distinguish feelings in between,
but when you lost the right one, what do you do when they leave?
Do you even realize what you've done, when that one is gone?
So was I just some pretty mistake, just another girl spent away...?"
(01/06/07)
That was two days after I wrote something comparably happy. I tried really hard to write something happy:
"When I'm in your arms I know you'll never let go.
And after all we've been through, I feel safe in your arms alone.
Even though we cannot change who or what we are, we can change what we do,
And I'll be alright as long as I'm with you..."
(01/04/07)
It's dedicated to Helo/Sharon, because their love is crazy...man, if you know Battlestar: Galactica, and saw the episode "Downloaded." Sharon was so content in his arms...guh...I want whatever she's having. In fact, I want to be a cylon. Frack everything else. You get to die over and over, and still have the memories, "so dying is just a learning experience."
Anyways, "Downloaded" in itself was a fabulous episode. Lucy Lawless is so evil. All the cylon chicks are so HOT. I love Sharon/Grace Park's hair....I want to be her! Hey, if she gets to have Aaron Douglass and Tahmoh Peniket, than who wouldn't want to be her? Oh, and don't get me started on Kara Thrace. She isn't a cylon, but man...she get's Jamie Bamber...and don't forget that towel scene:)
Anyways, pulling myself out of scifi world.
OMG, this is the funniest convo that me and Kevin have ever had...it's amazing!
MichaelKev0427: EMO!!!!!!!
Dark3princess: of course, duh, nobody believes that i'm an emo
Dark3princess: nobody
MichaelKev0427: so dark, lonely, *slits wrists*
Dark3princess: that wouldnt be a bad idea if it werent for infection possibility
MichaelKev0427: shut up!
Dark3princess: y
Dark3princess: i told u i was an emo
Dark3princess: lmao
Dark3princess: i'm just a happier variety
And that's a wrap for today, thanks for tuning in <3