excitement...
i was feeling really upset all day about the fact that i don't have anyone to hang out with. i hate most of the people i know. but i truly believe that they deserve the hatred that i send their way. they need to get their own fucking lives and stop ruining mine. it's fucking pitiful. the fact that they don't even realize how much i (and a few others) hate them is what really gets me. are they blind? do they not see how people are just putting on an act around them? the problem with high school is that you have to pretend that you are on good terms with people. these people are around you every day. it would be too awkward to let your real feelings shine through. HOWEVER SOME PEOPLE CAN LOOK FORWARD TO A BIG OL' "FUCK YOU" COME GRADUATION DAY BECAUSE I WILL NO LONGER HAVE TO HOLD IT ALL BACK. but alas, another year of this contrivance awaits.
i had a really nice conversation with my sister last night. she basically let me bitch to her about how scared/sad/angry i am. she's really helpful, and i know i don't give her enough credit. i really don't like her fiance and i don't like how she is choosing to live her life, but i do love her. of course that has nothing to do with the fact that i'd still rather slit my throat than be in her wedding. unfortunately i have no choice.
but right now i am not scared/sad/angry because rebecca and i are about to have an ADVENTURE! i'm excited beyond belief. we are going to a late movie, and then both of us told our parents that we would be spending the night at the other's house. infinite amounts of fun await. HERE'S TO LIVING DANGEROUSLY...
i had a really nice conversation with my sister last night. she basically let me bitch to her about how scared/sad/angry i am. she's really helpful, and i know i don't give her enough credit. i really don't like her fiance and i don't like how she is choosing to live her life, but i do love her. of course that has nothing to do with the fact that i'd still rather slit my throat than be in her wedding. unfortunately i have no choice.
but right now i am not scared/sad/angry because rebecca and i are about to have an ADVENTURE! i'm excited beyond belief. we are going to a late movie, and then both of us told our parents that we would be spending the night at the other's house. infinite amounts of fun await. HERE'S TO LIVING DANGEROUSLY...