(no subject)
experiment 7734.00078
Patient: Emma Beumers (resident, Blüdhaven)
Injections continue. 15.0mg - furchtblume. 5.0mg dimethyl sulfone.
Continution of external stimuli, sensory stimulation.
Mild signs of toxin exposure have begun to cease.
Test effects of dosages on patient's blood. If successful, prep patient for release, possibly Thursday evening.
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He doesn't think about what he's doing, he can't think about it. Compartmentalization. If he thinks about this beyond the most clinical, experimental thoughts...well, maybe he won't do it. He needs to do it, he needs to do this. These things are why he came to this world.
And maybe she deserves it, maybe she does. She's not even from Gotham. Maybe she's a terrible person, and he's doing the world a favor with what he's doing to her. Maybe. He can't think about that. He won't think about that.
Judah Stark wouldn't do this, wouldn't do any of this. Judah Stark isn't real. But maybe that's the point of all this. Make Jonathan Crane a monster, make Jonathan Crane the most terrible. Something to shake at, something to fear. Something in the dark. A monster. Then, make his brother better. Kinder.
Happier?
He wonders, often, during all of this what Harvey would think if he could see. He knows what his wife thinks of all of this, and he honestly wonders why she married him. She knew what he was, who he was. He doesn't think about that too long.
Patient: Emma Beumers (resident, Blüdhaven)
Injections continue. 15.0mg - furchtblume. 5.0mg dimethyl sulfone.
Continution of external stimuli, sensory stimulation.
Mild signs of toxin exposure have begun to cease.
Test effects of dosages on patient's blood. If successful, prep patient for release, possibly Thursday evening.
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He doesn't think about what he's doing, he can't think about it. Compartmentalization. If he thinks about this beyond the most clinical, experimental thoughts...well, maybe he won't do it. He needs to do it, he needs to do this. These things are why he came to this world.
And maybe she deserves it, maybe she does. She's not even from Gotham. Maybe she's a terrible person, and he's doing the world a favor with what he's doing to her. Maybe. He can't think about that. He won't think about that.
Judah Stark wouldn't do this, wouldn't do any of this. Judah Stark isn't real. But maybe that's the point of all this. Make Jonathan Crane a monster, make Jonathan Crane the most terrible. Something to shake at, something to fear. Something in the dark. A monster. Then, make his brother better. Kinder.
Happier?
He wonders, often, during all of this what Harvey would think if he could see. He knows what his wife thinks of all of this, and he honestly wonders why she married him. She knew what he was, who he was. He doesn't think about that too long.