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[lastchancetorun]

I go there because I wanted to redirect my self-destructive tendencies towards another world, away from the people that I care about. I go there.  Compartmentalizaton, I suppose.  For my family, for the people that I love, I want to be better. Maybe I want to be Judah Stark or James Liddell.

Sometimes, I think that it's working.  When I'm home, I don't feel the things that I used to feel.  I dismantled my lab, I work on my book, I'm with my family and for the most part I'm happy.

But when I'm there.  When I'm there.

Well.