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I tried so hard for you, like emotional suicide attempts. I killed myself for you. I traded in my conscience, I gave up my standards to trust you. Never would I put myself through so much, trying to trust anyone, but you. And you, it seems, are the one person whom I should have trusted the least. You can hand me "Im sorry, I care about you.. I don't want to hurt you".. but hearing it time and time again demoralizes it. I've forgiven you more than once sweetheart, and oh how I'd love to do it again, but I'm coming to realize that I'm killing myself for you, and I'm just not too sure it's really worth it. You break my heart over and over, but then again.. you're the only one that I want putting the pieces back together. And you don't see it. and I can open your eyes for you, I can tell you it exactly how it feels to me. And you just don't care. Or maybe it's that you do care, just not enough to do anything about it. Are you afraid, and why are you so afraid? I've sacrificed so much for you, you just don't care to do the same. And all you've really given me are kisses of false hope and a heart that knows only aching. I'm done trying, because you never seemed to in the first place. but that doesn't mean I give up. Weary as I may be, I won't lose all faith in you, and as torn and tattered as my heart may be, I'll just have to wait from a further distance. Praying for just one day that you won't break my heart