captians log 10.11.04. Boredom and a new computer
I have been thinking alot lately and i have come to accept that there are only two types of people in the world... there are the givers and the takers. The givers are some of the most self giving people you will ever meet, they are never trully worried about themselves, or what they need for something. Their major concern is whether or not they can do something for you or whether you need something. Then there are the takers. The takers are trully some of the most self conceded people out there. Everything happens for them and around them. If they need they take it without a second thought. It seems to me that people can only live a truly happy existance if they are both givers and takers... but that is often hard to do you normally either lean one way or the other. In general i feel like i am a giver.... simply because i know that i would give of myself until i had nothing left to make someone happy. Yet i know some people who are strict takers. They have no issue walking all over people to get what they want when they want it. In my personal opinion neither the givers or the takers are trully happy... you have to coinside giver and taker to be a happy person... in my opinion.... still alot easier said then done...
also i am pretty sure that i need to learn how to grow a back bone.... i need a night off of the daily routine....
1.) Wake up curse life and the retched day star
2.) go to class if it is a M-Th
3.) get back from class and have Erin call me and insits that i hang out with her
4.) Feel guilty if i dont want to hang out with her, and cave in
5.) Hang out with Erin and get bored fairly quickly
6.) Leave early and go to bob and james house
7.) hang out there until no one is awake or everyone leaves... or until bored again
8.) Go home sit online until i get tired
i need to switch this up a bit... i love hanging out with Bob and James and everyone over there dont get me wrong.... i just need to find away to delete step 3 through 5 without hating myself..... and it isnt like it is and everyday feeling... i just wish that somedays i could be like no i am going to be doing otherthings today.... Peace bitch.... but i cant fun fun fun
The funny thing is i know i can do it... i just freak myself out.... i dont know... i guess my fears get the best of me far to often.....
So i have to work tommorrow... but i dont have to work on Wednesday... Christine girls night???? perchance?!i dont have work on thursday either ... then i do work Friday, Saturday & Sunday.... exciting i know...
Damn i need to do some massive laundry...... my clothes are piling kinda high... maybe thursday after school.
SO..... Who wants to go to the Dali Museum with me???? Matt..... Rizzle..... Christine.... come on one of must want to go.....
well it is 3 am and i have class at one i shopuld totally go to bed....
♥
Jessica
also i am pretty sure that i need to learn how to grow a back bone.... i need a night off of the daily routine....
1.) Wake up curse life and the retched day star
2.) go to class if it is a M-Th
3.) get back from class and have Erin call me and insits that i hang out with her
4.) Feel guilty if i dont want to hang out with her, and cave in
5.) Hang out with Erin and get bored fairly quickly
6.) Leave early and go to bob and james house
7.) hang out there until no one is awake or everyone leaves... or until bored again
8.) Go home sit online until i get tired
i need to switch this up a bit... i love hanging out with Bob and James and everyone over there dont get me wrong.... i just need to find away to delete step 3 through 5 without hating myself..... and it isnt like it is and everyday feeling... i just wish that somedays i could be like no i am going to be doing otherthings today.... Peace bitch.... but i cant fun fun fun
The funny thing is i know i can do it... i just freak myself out.... i dont know... i guess my fears get the best of me far to often.....
So i have to work tommorrow... but i dont have to work on Wednesday... Christine girls night???? perchance?!i dont have work on thursday either ... then i do work Friday, Saturday & Sunday.... exciting i know...
Damn i need to do some massive laundry...... my clothes are piling kinda high... maybe thursday after school.
SO..... Who wants to go to the Dali Museum with me???? Matt..... Rizzle..... Christine.... come on one of must want to go.....
well it is 3 am and i have class at one i shopuld totally go to bed....
♥
Jessica