hm well it has been quite some time since ive updated this neat little journal here, quite some time indeed. i would just like to let you all know that im going to be unavailable for any parties, shindigs, or hang outs for a while due to my ridiculous groundation. lots has happened, i guess i really know nothing of what im going to do with myself these days. the fact that i have friends that care about me helps oh so much. they are so glorious and understanding especially a select few. besides this grounding nonsense i have been pondering life. it sounds dumb and i know most of you will say im stupid, but on a whole ive been horrible lately. no matter what i do i still seem to feel alone. oh well, it will blow over eventually i hope.