sucker punch to my heart
so this feels exactly the same as it did right before things fell apart with Kat. Dear god don't let it go that way again. I don't think I can take it if it happens again.
am i cold and distant? do i just not show my emotions enough? i always thought that i showed too much of my emotions.
I've felt sick and heavy hearted all day, i slept like shit last night and now I have to try and focus enough to take this History exam in a 30 minutes. everything else seems so dull, lacking, like its a dream. just our conversation seems real, and the only way i know it wasn't a bad dream is because it hurts too much.
i know things seemed to be worked out when all was said and done and dead, but there's something in your tone when you called me for the last time, something that i heard in your voice that i heard in her voice that just fills me with dread.
ultimately its out of my hands, i've done and said everything that i can, now i just get to wait.
wait in another state once again while a woman i love ponders my fate from a distance.
am i cold and distant? do i just not show my emotions enough? i always thought that i showed too much of my emotions.
I've felt sick and heavy hearted all day, i slept like shit last night and now I have to try and focus enough to take this History exam in a 30 minutes. everything else seems so dull, lacking, like its a dream. just our conversation seems real, and the only way i know it wasn't a bad dream is because it hurts too much.
i know things seemed to be worked out when all was said and done and dead, but there's something in your tone when you called me for the last time, something that i heard in your voice that i heard in her voice that just fills me with dread.
ultimately its out of my hands, i've done and said everything that i can, now i just get to wait.
wait in another state once again while a woman i love ponders my fate from a distance.