FM October topic - Temporary
"It's just temporary," Is what her mother told her the day that the entire world turned upside down and then came crashing down on them both. His double life was exposed because the truth? There's a thing you can't run from. No matter how hard you try, how much money you have, how well you lie. Eventually, it catches up with you. It all catches up with you. The world is too small of a place. Lacey realized that much the day her father's other wife, his whole other family, became part of hers. It was never supposed to be that way, but it happened all the same. And her mom, well she thought that it could be fixed. She was there first. Lacey was there first. Obviously in any contest, they'd win, right? Her dad would be forced to give up his second marriage and go back to being just theirs.
Except, winning wasn't an option by then. Her father felt as if he'd been freed from twelve years of hiding his tracks and staying just two steps ahead of his lies. He ditched both of his wives, moved on with his life. And what was temporary became permanent the day her mom stopped crying long enough to sign the divorce papers. He was still around, things just weren't the same and they never would be again.
After that, she stopped expecting anything solid from life. Permanence was forgotten, and she realized it was easier to just assume that everything would be over sooner or later. That no matter how real something seemed, how lasting it felt, there would be an end. Death was a guarantee, right? She accepted the world for what it was. Tenuous, at best. It's not the way she would have wanted it to be, but nothing really is.
But it works in her favor every now and then. Especially when suddenly neither of her parents are acknowledging her, and it feels like her best friend hates her. And everything she knew about herself was just a convenient lie until the truth of who she was, of what she was, was ready to surface. A truth she can't seem to live with, but living without them, her family, Lexi, everyone who matters to her is even worse than that. So she knows she has to find a way to live with it. If only to get the life she was already living back.
"It's just temporary," She tells herself, when it feels a little more permanent than she's used to.
Except, winning wasn't an option by then. Her father felt as if he'd been freed from twelve years of hiding his tracks and staying just two steps ahead of his lies. He ditched both of his wives, moved on with his life. And what was temporary became permanent the day her mom stopped crying long enough to sign the divorce papers. He was still around, things just weren't the same and they never would be again.
After that, she stopped expecting anything solid from life. Permanence was forgotten, and she realized it was easier to just assume that everything would be over sooner or later. That no matter how real something seemed, how lasting it felt, there would be an end. Death was a guarantee, right? She accepted the world for what it was. Tenuous, at best. It's not the way she would have wanted it to be, but nothing really is.
But it works in her favor every now and then. Especially when suddenly neither of her parents are acknowledging her, and it feels like her best friend hates her. And everything she knew about herself was just a convenient lie until the truth of who she was, of what she was, was ready to surface. A truth she can't seem to live with, but living without them, her family, Lexi, everyone who matters to her is even worse than that. So she knows she has to find a way to live with it. If only to get the life she was already living back.
"It's just temporary," She tells herself, when it feels a little more permanent than she's used to.