the chemistry between us could distroy this place.
April 30th, 2009 11:51 pm.
Hello Livejournal world.
Time for a very serious and lenghty update.
I love Grand Valley State University but I am starting to wonder if it is for me.
Or is it Psychology that I need to change.
I've never done good in the classes but its something I've always wanted to be.
Although I know more than anyone else that I never get what I want.
I just feel that it is too late to change my major and if I do what do I want to become now.
I failed the first class ever in my life.
It felt like a punch in the face.
I just don't want to talk grades with anyone.
I fail.
There is this boy and I just don't know what to do.
We are just starting to become friends and I don't want to ruin that.
I am so insane.
I need to just let things go.
This fall I will get good grades and get off AP and not do anything until my GPA is better.
Goals for the summer:
x.sleep in a bed with derek :]
o.get a job
x.lose 20+ pounds
o.do what I want to do
x.go to cedar point
o.kiss a boy
x.get kissed
o.be happy
x.finish eclipse
o.start and finish a lot of books
Goals for this fall:
x.get good grades
o.hang out in the library
x.find a boy
o.worry more about grades than anything else
x.still be happy
I will probably only do well on like two or three of those.
Ferris is such a nice get away for me.
My greek family doesn't even realize how much I love them.
Even if my big never answers my calls. I know he is crazy busy.
My twin is like my real twin. We have a lot in common.
Nephew is the craziest person I know and I love him a lot.
I finally figured out why I am so crazy around boys.
I've never truly had a boyfriend and I blame "him".
He makes me so nervous that I won't be able to keep control.
I would like to take that back that summer and everything would be okay with me.
Moving away from home might have made it worse.
I freak out anytime I am walking alone and even more at night.
He still has a control over me and I hate it.
I just got so sick of talking about the situation with people because they are no help at all.
Brandon Miller is the only person that still gives me nightmares.
(maybe putting that out there will help some.)
I like The Spill Canvas a lot.
I just started listening to them because they were going to be at Ferris Fest and they remind me about the lyrics and I like it.
After talking to Derek I need to take the career test again.
Maybe, Psychology is not my major to be.
I am destined to be something else. Something I can be great at.
I will sleep another day, I don't need to anyway.
AutBot.
Hello Livejournal world.
Time for a very serious and lenghty update.
I love Grand Valley State University but I am starting to wonder if it is for me.
Or is it Psychology that I need to change.
I've never done good in the classes but its something I've always wanted to be.
Although I know more than anyone else that I never get what I want.
I just feel that it is too late to change my major and if I do what do I want to become now.
I failed the first class ever in my life.
It felt like a punch in the face.
I just don't want to talk grades with anyone.
I fail.
There is this boy and I just don't know what to do.
We are just starting to become friends and I don't want to ruin that.
I am so insane.
I need to just let things go.
This fall I will get good grades and get off AP and not do anything until my GPA is better.
Goals for the summer:
x.sleep in a bed with derek :]
o.get a job
x.lose 20+ pounds
o.do what I want to do
x.go to cedar point
o.kiss a boy
x.get kissed
o.be happy
x.finish eclipse
o.start and finish a lot of books
Goals for this fall:
x.get good grades
o.hang out in the library
x.find a boy
o.worry more about grades than anything else
x.still be happy
I will probably only do well on like two or three of those.
Ferris is such a nice get away for me.
My greek family doesn't even realize how much I love them.
Even if my big never answers my calls. I know he is crazy busy.
My twin is like my real twin. We have a lot in common.
Nephew is the craziest person I know and I love him a lot.
I finally figured out why I am so crazy around boys.
I've never truly had a boyfriend and I blame "him".
He makes me so nervous that I won't be able to keep control.
I would like to take that back that summer and everything would be okay with me.
Moving away from home might have made it worse.
I freak out anytime I am walking alone and even more at night.
He still has a control over me and I hate it.
I just got so sick of talking about the situation with people because they are no help at all.
Brandon Miller is the only person that still gives me nightmares.
(maybe putting that out there will help some.)
I like The Spill Canvas a lot.
I just started listening to them because they were going to be at Ferris Fest and they remind me about the lyrics and I like it.
After talking to Derek I need to take the career test again.
Maybe, Psychology is not my major to be.
I am destined to be something else. Something I can be great at.
I will sleep another day, I don't need to anyway.
AutBot.